Life
Autor: Yamiku
Sitting alone at home being sick makes you wonder about many things.
In fact, I'm a work o holic. Why is that? Because whenever you do something there's no time for thinking about anything else but the work you're doing right now.
I'm not searching for any meaning of life as there's none but raising a familiy making sure your 'line' will go on existing. Same meaning as there is for any other animal on this planet.
I sometimes find myself in a corner asking, if there's anything worth staying here when it's not more but a game.
You stand up, eat, go to work, come home, eat, go to sleep.. again and again.. nothing else.
Maybe that's the reason why I asked myself, too, if it would be better to stop cosplaying. To tell the truth, this hobby made me sick, jealous and sad a hundred times since I started it.
Whenever I think of stopping a little window opens up showing me the moments of fun I had doing something with the people I like. If I'd stop for sure it's like I'd give myself to the dark abyss waiting.
I know I'm not a good person, I'm avoiding people, throw them away, even those I should care about. There're many times when I think I deserve nothing better than being alone.
Well enough with that melodramatic shit.. I'm going to watch some stupid tv show now 'cause I've got nothing better to do today and even if I wanted to, I couldn't do anything better 'cause of this fantastic illness I got.
you want me to fly again? I wonder which in direction my wings will take me.