Autor: Yamiku
actually I do have a lot to say and at the other hand I don't have anything to say.
it's like the big question about the meaning of life.
one could say a million words and yet it woudn't be enough.
it's been actually a year full of pain, anger, sickness, scolding, despair and envy, but it was also a year that allowed me to see kindness and friendship.
normally at this season I tend to lock myself from the world and think about the past and current state and where the path will lead my feet are walking at.
it's like trying to find a way out of a dark foggy mog.
maybe someday I'll just get lost and smother in that deep black pool.
though I'd kinda think of it as a funny thing to die at a day one was born, it's not my intention to give up and fall.
I know there're kind people that do care about me and I give them not more than a big headache in reward everytime I'm saying such not so 'happy ever after' looking things.
I'm not perfect, I'm not an icon, not all selfless and from my point of view no one one should try to follow into footsteps 'though there'll always exist those to iconize me.
anyway, don't think so much about it! I'm living with this twisted mind for a few decades now and I'll never give into the easy way.
it's just not like me not fighting till the bitter end.
and as christmas and new years eve are coming soon, I wish you all a happy and great time.
I'll be in good hands during this festive period.