25th of decembre
I think I lost myself
on the way of becoming an adult.
Instead of growing up
I became everyone around
I suddenly feel so empty
And it's so empty around me.
There will never be a way
to be
Or to become one person
I dissolve in this crowd
Being just one big mass of feelings
And when you leave the stage
It is all gone
Is this everything there is?
An everlasting Showtime?
Serve my heart on your table
The hole in my chest filled with some stuffing
Today it's chrimas time.
Serve the table
Eat it up!
I'm stuck.
Stuck in this illusion...
-that became my worst nightmare
Stuck in this world....
-that has no end
My dreams dissapeared
together with everything I felt before
It's like cold winter air
You can't hold in your hand
But your hand gets numb
after a while
first it hurts
then it's just numb...
I'm stuck to this
No answer given to me is true
No question asked was real
My pain just disapeared
And I was happy
My happiness disapeared
And I was sad
My sadness dissapeard
And suddenly the pain returned
Like burning my soul
The fire eating my heart
Eating everything I ever had
Alice, alice that ran
And feel into her illusion
Of a paradise turning into a nightmare
Of time
turning to sand...
Sand of an endless desert
meaning nothing.
