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In the middle of Nowhere

Imagine one white winter day...

Kyo yawned, opened his eyes a bit sleepy and stared into Shinyas, who sat cuddled up to his shoulder. "Finally back to live?"he smiled. Kaoru set in front of them, and had been chatting with Shinya. Die and Toshiya were somewhere else, doing... stuff, Kyo didn't want to imagine. "Hmmm..." Kyo closed his eyes again and cuddled up to Shinya. "Shin-chan..." he asked sleepy. "Mh? Shinya responded. "Stay here, will you?" - " 'Course."Shinya closed his eyes, too, enjoying Kyo's warmth and the calm he brought. "Shin-chan?" Kyo asked, playing with some strains of Shinya's hair. "Mh?"Shinya responded, again. "Aishiteru."Kyo said and wrapped one arm around Shinyas waist. It began to darken outside, and the white snow was glowing red from the last sunlight. Trees were twinkling myterious and beautiful, catching the last sunlight and breaking it in every possible colour. Shinya took a thoughful glimpse of the nature outside the window, and Kaoru noticed a small shadow flying over his pupils for one moment and darkening them. Kyo lay close to Shinya, eyes closed, breathing steady. But Shinya could tell he wasn't asleep. And so he just breathed Kyos scent and enjoyed the near, he had missed for long time. Nearly too long. Sometimes he noticed a distance that made him think. They were lovers, they should be really close, shouldn't they? But there was something Kyo hid. Shinya knew. He remembered this one time he entered the bedroom late at night to find Kyo sitting on their bed, staring at some sheets of paper, reading one after the other. When he noticed Shinya standing in the door, he hastily put them away. He wouldn't tell Shinya what that sheets meant, but it seemed to be important. Kyo had never had a secret before Shinya, not even when they were "just"Friends. Shinya was worried. He caught Kaoru staring at him, with a questioning look in his eyes. Shinya smiled at winked, just to show everything was fine. But he knew it wouldn't work on Kaoru. So he just shrugged and stopped thinking about it. Everything would worked out. It just had to. "Ne, GUYS!!!!"A loud voice cut their silence, and Kyo nearly hopped from the Fauteuil with shock. A young woman entered the room, waving some sheets of paper through the air, an earnest look at her face. "Where are Die an' Totchi?"Kyo grinned knowingly and shrugged. She rolled her eyes. "Okay, forget I asked."She handed the papers to Kaoru. "It's getting worse, guys. We're... "- "Snowed in???" Kaoru yelled. "What do they mean with 'snowed in'?" The woman shrugged. "It means we're not getting out of here. The streets are blocked, no way to send a helicopter here. By the way, they wouldn't do for us, either. The women on line nearly collapsed with laughter when I asked. So we have to stay here 'till it gets better. Or at least, 'till someone gets us out of here. All we could do is walk around, perhaps up to the forest and a bit into it, but that'd be all. We'll even have problems getting to the next village."Shinya looked startled. "You're KIDDING!"She shook her head. "No way?"Kyo asked worried. She shook her head once more. "DLXNM#*!!!!!!"Everyone pressed his hands on their ears because of the loud flow of scolding that came from Kaoru. He seethed with anger. "Kao-kun, I'm sure it's not THAT bad, please..." Shinya tried to calm Kaoru down, when Die rushed in the room, looking a bit distracted and very dishevelled. Everyone gazed at him critical. "Um... What's cooking, guys?" He asked, grinning a bit embarassed. "We're snowed in." Kaoru grumbled. Die looked at one after the other intensive, and everyone nodded remorsed. Suddenly he broke into loud yells of happiness. "Yeah! Yeah!"He rushed back to the door, kicked it open and yelled out: "Totchi-chan!!! Honey, we're SNOWED IN! Isn't that wonderful?!"And disappeared. "Well, at least one who isn't distracted or angry." - "Guess why."Kaoru snarled. The woman knelt down next to Kaoru. "C'mon Kaoru, don't be so negative."Kaoru didn't answer. She threw a desperate look at Shinya, and Shinya understood. "Kao-chan..." he used his sweetest voice. "You can't change it. And besides, it couldn't be that bad, could it?"Kaoru looked away and plouted.
 

Comments: Whew! I finally did it! The first chapter of my first, ultimative DEG-Christmas-fic is completed. I was inspired by the kiss (ya know...^.^*) and the weather outside. And the thought of our last winter-holiday. White fields wherever you look... It was soooooo beautiful! *.* Kao-kao is angry, oh... It'll get better, I promise...! But - psssst! It's - a - Secwet!(GRAVITATION)

-> look forward to: Chapter 2 : How long??? Sex or no sex, this is the question...

How long???

"Ne, Shin-chan?!" - "Hm?"Shinya rose from his thoughts. Kaoru stood beside him and looked out of the window, trying to find what fascinated Shinya that much, since he was staring out that window for half an hour now. "What's worrying you, Shinya?"Kaoru asked earnest. Shinya blushed. "Am I that obvious?"he asked startled. "Shin-chan, I'm not silly or whatever. I know you. There's something bothering you, since some days now." Kaoru complained. "Why aren't you telling me? Is it about Kyo?"Shinya blushed heavier (I hate to let him blush so much, but it fits in and suites him...@.@). Slowly, he nodded. "Kyo and me... whe have... problems."He stated, forcing every word out. Kaoru looked at him irritated. "But it seemed everything was fine between you two. Don't you love him anymore?" - "Yes, I do!"Shinya responded. Then he became more shy. "It's more... he doesn't seem to like me anymore..." Kaoru nearly grabbed Shinyas arm in disbelief. "Is it Kyo we're speaking of?? Shinya, he adores you, and you know that! He would do anything to make you feel good. I mean, it's obvious how much he's in love with you. Even I noticed!"Kaoru grinned and infected Shinya with that. "C'mon, Shinya, what makes you think that? It has to be really earnest."Shinya stopped grinning and nodded. "Well, I tried to ignore it, but... It seems to me he has changed. The last few weeks we didn't even see us very often. Either he's away or he's asleep. It makes me worry, Kaoru. And some days ago..." Shinya stopped and began to stare again. "What?" Kaoru asked. "I... I entered the bedroom and he sat on the bed, reading some myterious papers. When he spotted me, he hastily put them away. I asked him what they meant, but he wouldn't tell me."Shinyas shoulders sank a bit. "What's he hiding? I mean, we never had any secrets..."His voice grew lower and finally vanished. Kaoru stood and said nothing, just looked at Shinya earnest. "And he's always so tired..." - "Well, that's nothing new!" Kaoru stated, and had to grin. Shinya stayed earnest and looked at Kaoru aslmost stern. "No, it's gotten extremely. I wonder he sleeps at night at all. He's fast asleep when he lays down, but when I woke up one night, he wasn't there and..."Shinya gulped. "... We didn't have sex anymore..."Kaoru frowned. "For how long?"He asked in a low voice. "Three weeks." A faint blush appeared at Shinyas cheeks. "How long????" Kaoru didn't want to say it so loud, but he was really startled. "Shh! Kaoru!"Shinya placed one hand over Kaorus mouth. "Be quiet!"Kaoru looked at Shinya with big eyes. "You're kidding, Shinya, you don't wanna tell me Kyo didn't even touch you for three weeks!"Shinya looked embarassed and Kaoru apologized. "Sorry, Shinya, I didn't want to embarrass you... But - he couldn't get his hands off you in the beginning. And I thought that hadn't changed?"Shinya shrugged and frowned. "Dunno. It's strange, really. Nothing has changed, except the fact our lovelife came from 150 m/h to nearly 0. He tells me he loves me, and I believe him. But doesn't he want me anymore? 'Cause I do still want him!"Shinya pressed out almost angry. Then he turned silent again and went on with staring out of the window. Kaoru sighed. "Shin-chan?"he asked. "Yeah?" Shinya turned towards him again. "Why don't you speak with him?"Shinya looked startled and then shrugged. "What should I tell him? 'Honey, I really like you, but I could do with a little bit more shagging'?"Shinya laughed bitter. "No, I can't do, really. I think it'll get better. Perhaps he's really stressed, and that's all. Perhaps it'll get better here." Shinya managed a halfway optimistic smile and walked away, leaving Kaoru behind with a frown. "Shin-chan, that's bound to go wrong."he said in a low voice, looking out of the window. 'Perhaps, ' he thought, 'It's really better I stayed alone. There's too much fuss in a relationship.'But inside of him, a little voice answered: 'You don't really believe that, do you?"
 

Comments: Waaaaaah! Another part finished and I have no clue how to go on! Hm, a chapter just about Kaoru and Shinya. Seems as if little Shin-chan really has problems with his beloved Kyo. Kyo-Kyo, what're you doing with your lover? But, trust me, I won't let them part! ^.~ Besides, do you like the pairing? And I'll get a cute guy for Kaoru, also!!! ^.^ Yay!Yay!Yay!

-> look forward to : Chapter 3: Beautiful stranger Kaoru-chan gets himself a lover; everything very weird.

Beautiful Stranger

Kaoru stepped through the white landscape. He was a bit angry. Shinya has Kyo. And though there are problems between them, at least they're together. Die has Toshiya. They're not even getting out of bed. And me? I'm running around here. And I wait. Shinya, Kyo, Die and Toshiya searched for their happiness and found it. I'm the only one to wait for my "Prince Charming". I'm silly. SILLY! One lover, another lover. That's not enough. Kaoru sighed. Suddenly, someone broke out of the forest and ran dierctly into Kaoru, knocking him off his feet into the snow. "Ouch!"The man who ran into him held one hand towards Kaoru. "A, je m'excuse, mademoiselle... Je n'ai pas vous voit... Je brouchais de la forêt et cognais à vous..."A torrent of french words poured over Kaoru. "Hun?"He asked and stared at the stranger startled. "Oh... Monsieur..." The young man stared back. "Je m'excuse..."His voice sounded soft and warm. "Erm... Do you speak English?"Kaoru asked and blushed, but the young man nodded, not able to take his eyes off the delicate face in front of him, which cheeks reddened a bit. He had never seen anyone blush so beautiful. "Yes... I'm... sorry..."Kaoru felt an exciting warmth raise inside his tummy. The eyes of the guy twinkled nearly black, his face reddened a bit from cold. But he was so handsome... Kaoru felt the sudden ruge to rip all clothes off him and rape him here and now... Kaoru frightened because of his own thoughts, blushed and blinked confused. That broke the intensive eye contact, and both guys were suddenly pushed back into reality. "Um... may I 'elp you up?"He couldn't hide his french dialect, but Kaoru didn't really notice it, beside the fact it sounded really cute. Kaoru nodded absent-minded and took the hand of the stranger. The half-melted snow was slippery, and perhaps Kaoru was heavier than he seemed, but both slid out and landed in the snow together, the stranger on top of Kaoru. Both gazed at each other startled and Kaoru blushed heavily, ('Get.That.Thought.Out.Of.Your.Head.') but couldn't help giggling. The stranger looked at the giggling Kaoru irritated and then started laughing, too. He leaned back and wanted to get up, when Kaoru grabbed the collar of his jacket - "No"he breathed giggling - and pulled the stranger back, making their lips meet. That wasn't his purpose, and so his eyes widened startled. His gaze and this of the stranger met and Kaorus look softened. The stranger stroke aside Kaorus hair and held his head while deepening the kiss. His tongue stroke over Kaoru's lips and Kaoru opened his mouth, beginning an affectionate play. They were half sitting, half lying and the snow beneath them turned into a wet, grey mass, but they didn't notice until Kaoru shivered. "It's... cold..."He broke the kiss and stared at the stranger. He nodded. "Hai."He raised and pulled Kaoru up, too, holding Kaoru close to himself. Suddenly Kaoru froze and stared at the stranger suspiciously. "You...You spoke Japanese...!"The stranger grinned. "Um... Yes?" - "Silly bloke!"Kaoru gave a cute plout and turned away, freeing himself from the strangers arms. The stranger looked irritated. "Nani??"- "You pretended not to speak any Japanese and answered me in french and made me speak English and..."Kaoru stopped, plouting. The stranger was still irritated. "You didn't ask!"he responded. Kaoru gave him a short look he couldn't define...amusement? Suddenly, Kaoru bent down, grabbed a handful of snow and threw it at the stranger. "Take this, jerk!"He yelled laughing. The stranger ducked, throwing some snow back. Soon, the air around them was filled up with twirling snowflakes, and both of them were covered with -more or less - snow. Suddenly, Kaoru felt a tight grip around his waist and something cold sliding down his neck. Very cold. Kaoru gasped, but the hold was too tight to get away. ( He didn't really try, either!^.^;) Then, he felt soft lips on his cheek. "It's cold?"The stranger asked in a low voice. Kaoru nodded. "May I warm you up?"The stranger whispered. Kaoru smiled and turned his head to kiss the stranger gently. He flingered one arm around the strangers neck and pulled him a bit nearer. Their kiss grew more intensive, cutting both of them off breath. Kaoru broke it and looked at the stranger inquisitive, stroking his face and lips careful. "By the way... What's your name?" The stranger grinned. "Yeah... I'm afraid, I can't tell you. It's a big secret."Kaoru narrowed his eyes. "Then you won't know mine either... and you won't know where I live...So if I'm leaving you right away, you'll probably never see me again..." - "I'll follow you." - "I'm fast." - "Me, too." - "I'll lock myself inside my room and won't get out." - "I'll wait outside 'til you do." - "It's cold outside, you'll freeze." - "You'll warm me up, I'm sure."Kaoru smiled warmly and gave the stranger a small kiss. "You won."The stranger stroke his lips along Kaorus neck up to his ear. Kaoru almost moaned, but bit his lip to suppress it. His grip tightened around the strangers neck. "Fabien." He breathed into Kaorus ear. "Eh?"Kaoru looked at him big-eyed. "Fabien. That's my name."He smiled about the look in Kaorus eyes. "Mh. Fa-bienne?"Kaoru asked. The stranger shook his head amused. "No. Fabien."Kaoru looked puzzled, forming the name with his lips. "Um... my mother sometimes calls me... Shun. She's Japanese, you know."Kaorus face lit up. "Shu-chan!"he cheered. "What??" Fabien/Shun raised his eyebrows. "Shu-chan. That's how I'll call you." Shun wanted to insist, when Kaoru pushed a "Ne, koibito?"afterwards. Shuns resistance melted when he looked into Kaoru's eyes and heard these soft whispered words. "And what's your name, mysterious beauty?"He asked smiling. "Kaoru."breathed Kaoru. "Kaoru..." Shun whispered gently and Kaoru nodded fascinated. "Mh, that's beautiful. But what else would you expect?"He said and Kaoru blushed heavily. He wasn't used to such compliments, and they embarassed him. Kaoru bowed his head and tried in vain to hide his flushed up face. Shun grabbed his chin and forced him to raise his head. "You look even more cute when you blush." He stated. "That doesn't help."Kaoru responded. "I hate blushing, it's embarrassing, but I can't help it." He shrugged. "You said your mother was Japanese..." Kaoru changed the topic fast, "... Then why do you speak French?"Shun smiled. "Hm, my mother went to France with my father when I was one. I grew up there... But we always go to Japan for winter, visiting my mother's relatives." He rolled his eyes with a saucy look over his face, and Kaoru started sniggering. But then he stopped abruptely. "So - you have to leave when winter's over?"Shun shrugged. "Yeah."Suddenly, Kaoru snuggled up to him, and a warm surge went up his spine. "I'll hold you till then, all right?"Shun wrapped his arms closer around Kaoru. "All right."he murmured. They didn't notice it grew darker around them. The sun was set long ago and it had darkened fast. And it grew colder. "Mh."Kaoru shivered a bit and Shun looked up. "What's up?"he asked careful. "It's getting cold. And it's almost night. I... I don't like coldness." Kaorus eyes sparkled at Shun. "And I'm afraid of walking home alone... it's not very near from here..." That was a big lie, but Shun understood the hint. "Then I should better assure you reach home 'ealthy, should I?"Kaoru nodded innocently. "And you should assure I'm not freezing."He added, grinning from one ear to another. Shun face brightened up, too. "If you say, my beauty."He responded. "How'd you like to do?"Kaoru asked inncoently and interested. "Do what?"Shun asked. "Keep me warm."Kaoru grinned almost evil. Shun didn't asnwer, but kissed Kaoru hotly and Kaoru grabbed Shun tight. They walked past the fields in a tight embrace, and flitted up the stairs in the house. Kaoru opened his door quietly and pulled Shun inside by his hand. The door wasn't even closed, when Kaoru pushed Shun on the bed and knelt down over him. Shun grinned suggestive. "You aren't shy, are you?"Kaoru shook his head aggressive. "This is MY terrain... you're lost in my catch now..."Shun lay back at looked at Kaoru submissive. " 'ungry?"he asked huskily and Kaoru bowed down, propping his hands on the bed next to Shuns head, and letting his breath stroke over Shuns skin. "Yeah." He breathed, lowering his head and biting Shuns neck softly. Shun arched his head back and moaned softly, while his hands were openening Kaorus jacket and slipped it off him. His hands stroke over Kaorus hair and back, while Kaoru continued caressing his neck and - after he undid the jacket, the pullover and opened the shirt, Shun was wearing beneath - shoulders, biting, kissing, licking, teasing. Shuns hands slid under Kaorus pullover and T-Shirt, pulling it over his head and making him break the contact. Kaoru helped getting rid of the clothes and finally slid down Shuns chest, to his abdomen. Shun closed his eyes, grabbing the sheet with one hand and softly pressing Kaorus head down with the other. He laughed huskily when Kaoru began to unbutton his trousers with his teeth. "Where did you learn THAT?"he asked and Kaoru stopped, looking up. "Hmmh?"Shun grinned. "Go on..." he declined. "... Please..."Kaoru grinned and pulled Shuns trousers and underwear down, throwing them on the ground carelessly. He purred when he saw Shun lying in front of him completely naked. "Mh... you're tasty."He crawled up a bit and pushed his hips against Shun's making him moan louder and grabbing the sheets even tighter. "Mh... Kaoru..."He breathed huskily and Kaoru grinned, continuing rubbing his hips against Shun's. "Aw... don't tease me..."Kaoru bowed down to Shun. "Stop me if you don't like it..."Shun looked at grinning Kaoru and then pinned him down on the bed, caressing his body and making him moan cosy. Kaoru flingered his legs around Shuns waist in desire, but suddenly stopped. Shun looked at him puzzled. "What now?"Kaoru winked. "You don't wanna hurt me, do you?"Shun shook his head vigorously. "Of course not!"Kaoru grinned, streched his arm and grabbed under his bed. He threw something at Shun with a mischievious grin. Shun caught it and stared at it and then began to grin, also. "Ok?"Kaoru asked. "I think so."Shun grinned back, bowing down to Kaoru for another deep kiss. Kaoru wouldn't forget that night that followed. And that glorious sex. It was different; it was more like making Love, but Kaoru didn't even dare to think that. He just enjoyed it, feeling Shun as near as possible, lying next to each other, breathing hard, cuddling up to each other, finally slipping into a restful sleep. When Kaoru awakaned, he was alone. He blinked a bit confused and yawned. His throat was sore from several cries of pleasure he just wasn't able to suppress. And he would surely have problems sitting today. (^.^;) Then, his gaze fell on a Pullover, folded up carefully, and a note layed over it. "Good morning, my beauty," it said, "I'm sorry I had to leave so early. Last night was wonderful, I just wanted you to know. We should repeat it, shouldn't we?" Kaoru grinned. "This beneath is for keeping you warm 'til I'm back. Shun. P.S.: I forgot: Meet me at 4, you know where. And don't worry. Nobody saw me."Kaoru gazed at the last sentence startled since this was the very thought he had before reading this. Kaoru sighed and grabbed the pullover, holding it near to his cheeks and inhaling its scent. Shun. He smiled amorous and then pulled it over. Kaoru didn't even notice his hand still hold the note grabbed tight when he entered the kitchen, where whole Dir en Grey was sitting and having breakfast. Shinya nearly choked when he saw the look on Kaorus face. He looked suspiciously happy...! But Kyo noticed something different, too. With one jump he was next to Kaoru and grabbed the note. Before Kaoru could do anything, he hopped back to Shinya and read out lout: "Good morning, my beauty. I'm sorry I had to leave so early. Last night was wonderful..."Kyos voice fadened and he finished reading the note silent, while all members of Dir en Grey stared either at Kyo or at Kaoru startled. Kyo put the note down on the table when he finished it and his eyes twinkled amused. "Who is Shun?"he asked mischievous.
 

Comments: I just can't believe I did it! Only the third chapter and I wrote a halfway-lemon scene! Forgive me it became no 'real'but I'm not good at describing gay sex... ahem, well, and now, everybody knows about Shun and Kaoru. What will happen? Is Shun really earnest? What does he do? And what will he say if he finds out Kaoru is a member of DeG?

-> look forward to next part: Chapter 4: Now? And here? Things follow hot on each other's heels. (I have no clue what will happen, to be honest)

Now? And Here??

23.12. Toshiy stretched one arm out cosy and played with some strains of Dies hair. The red head smiled sunny and blew out some blue cigarette smoke. "Ne, Totchi-chan?" Toshiya grinned himself and snapped the cigarette out of Dies hand for inhaling deep. "What?"he sounded a bit muffled. "Shouldn't we join the others?"Toshiya lay back and shook his head lazily. "Bet they won't miss us. At all - joining the others would mean to stand up and put some clothes on and leave that very comfortable bed..." Die nodded, while some fingers of his left hand trailed down Toshiyas fragile chest. "Indeed."Toshiya nodded, too. "No way."he answered and blew Die a kiss. "Ne, koi, what could be better than spending the day in bed with each other?"Die laughed huskily. "Having a nice breakfast. I'm starving." Toshiya winked. "You could have ME for breakfast, if you're a good boy... But if you prefer some bad toasts..."Toshiya couldn't finish his sentence - he didn't want to either - because Die was over him and shutting his mouth with some kisses. Toshiya grinned mischievous and pulled Die near, thrusting his tongue deep into Die's mouth. Suddenly, Die pulled away and left a startled Toshiya. "Let's go have some toast, Totchi-chan!" Die hopped out of bed and ducked before the pillow Toshiya threw hit him. "Silly bloke!" Toshiya laughed. "At first you have to get me out of here and into clothes."Die crawled on the bed towards Toshiya like a hungry tiger. "Getting you out of here isn't hard to do. And I would prefer having you without clothes." - "HAVING ME?" Toshiy gasped and giggled. "But - Die - what will the toast say?" Shinya sighed and took a last look at the mirror. He looked awful. Kyo had stayed down in the lobby til VERY late in the night and Shinya had been fallen asleep when he came up. Flashback Kyo yawned and rubbed his eyes. "Ne, Kyo-kun, whassup? Why aren't you with Shinya ?" Kyo blinked towards the young woman in the other armchair. "Hai, Mya-chan, I'd love to. But I have things to do." Mya winked grinning. "More important than your sweetheart?"Kyo laughed silent. "Kyo, c'mon there's something wrong, don't deny it." Mya threw a stern look to Kyo and he sighed. "You got it. Or better: You didn't get it. Dunno. Shinya's acting strange."Mya shrugged. "I'm not surprised.You let me sleep." - "Hun?" - "You aren't shagging all night and waking me up and don't let me get back to sleep until both of you had their fun."Kyo was at the edge of a faint. "You didn't have to say it THAT explicit."Mya frowned. "Since some weeks you're both acting strange. What's cooking?"Kyo had an uncomfortable look on his face. "I could understand if you wouldn't like to talk to me. But whom would you talk to if not me? Kyo, all I wanna do is help you! And poor Shinya-chan. He's suffering, don't you notice that?" Kyo sighed. "It's no big deal." He took some papers and a CD from the table and handed them to Mya. Mya's eyes flew over the lines, filled up with notes, criddled on, erased, drawn again and again. "I'm running out of paper since we arrived."Kyo explained the horrible form of it, but Mya didn't seem to be interested in. "Kyo that's..." She let her eyes pass the other piece. "That's beautiful, really..." She was speechless, a state you ususally never got to see. "C'mon Kyo, don't tell me you wrote that all on your own?! It's so filled up with emotion..."Kyo glared. "Do you really think?"Mya didn't answer but hummed the melody line. From her, it sounded like a love song. Actually, Kyo had to admit, it WAS a love song. Her hands were flitting throug the air, grabbing imaginary accords on a piano. "That's wonderful, Kyo... Are there any lines?"- "Hun?"Kyo asked irritated. "Are there lyrics? Don't you have lyrics for that?" Kyo shook his head. "No... it's a pity I'm not good with words... I'm not even very good in composition... So I tired hard... It's a present to Shinya. It's dedicated to him... I work on it since we left because on Tour is the only time I could do such things. I don't want him to watch me or anything... I don't even think it will impress him very much, but... Well, I tried to express what I feel..." Kyo trailed off, fiddling around the armchair he sat on nervously while Mya stared at him speechlessly. Her jaw had dropped. "What do you stare at me like that?"Kyo asked angry. "I... I just couldn't believe you really did. That's the most beautiful thing I ever read and heard of. You really love him, do you?"Kyo nodded sadly. "I s'pose that has to be it. But, y'know, he's acting strange the last days and I had no time for him... I had a hard time fixing the arrangements. I sat at it whenever I could... It's tiring me, but I wanna finish it at last..." Mya cut of his word with one move. "Why don't you ask Kaoru?" - "Hun?"Kyo looked at her big-eyed. "Ask Kaoru. He's got a hand for things like that." She swayed the sheets. "I'm sure he'd love to help you. If you want to fix it for DeG, he's the one to ask, believe me." Kyo nodded quietly and stared a bit into the chemin. "Mya-chan?"Mya threw him a look. "Yeah?"Kyo gulped. "Is there actually anybody YOU love?"Mya smiled sweetly. "Yeah, there is. But my love is back in Europe. We parted when I went here-" She nodded a bit sad. "We had a hard time making up our relationship and I adored her a long while before getting to know her. But everything didn't work out very good, so we were splitting up, and returning, again and again. We can't do without each other. But she broke contact. She plouts that I came here instead of resting with her. But I wasn't able to do it different."Mya sighed. "Silly girl."Kyo listened intently. "Why do you love her?"he finally asked. Mya laughed. "I should be asking that. Dunno, really, but she's the most beautiful woman in the world to me. She's not perfect, but to me she is..."Mya finished and gazed far. Suddenly, she pulled herself out of the armchair. "But, hey, no time to ask such questions. It's about 1, we should go to bed. By the way - you should be telling me this, you're way older than me."She joked and poked Kyo in the ribs. Kyo laughed and shoved her hand away. "Yay, that may be true..." he stretched and stood up, yawning again. "I'm not getting enough sleep!" he stated and Mya laughed. "You're sleeping all the time, Kyo-chan!" She hushed up the stairs. "I.Am.Not.Chan! I.Am.Not.Cute!"Kyo yelled after her. "Ask your Shin-chan if you are! I'm sure he'll tell you so!" And she disappeared into her bedroom. Kyo gazed at the papers and the CD, he had recorded with some friends in long and hard work. "Hope you're worth the trouble." end flashback Of course Shinya didn't know of this scene. So he just sighed and combed through his hair. He's cutted it, but he had to get used to that length. He sighed again and put the comb away, taking some steps aways from the mirror, then back there, and at last he stepped to the bed and slightly shook Kyo, who was still asleep. "Hey! Kyo-Kyo..."Kyo just moaned a bit and turned round, eyes closed. Shinya sighed and sat down on the bed and shook Kyo again. "Kyo-chan... C'mon, wake up!" But Kyo didn't react. Shinya stoop up and went to the bathroom. "Kyo, I'm really, really sorry for that..."Shinya sighed and then threw a cold and wet washcloth on Kyo, who roused up from bed startled. Shinya grinned and sat down behind him, flingering his arms around Kyo's shoulders. "Good morning, honey..." he whispered huskily and Kyo grinned, too. "Ano, Shin-chan..."- "Mh?" Shinya had his head layed on Kyos shoulder and the eyes closed. Suddenly, the washcloth landed at his face. Shinya shrieked and let go of Kyo, but grabbed his wrist again in the next moment. "Brat! You ruined my MakeUp! Come here!" Kyo had tried to flee from the bed when Shinya grabbed his wrist violently. Kyo winced and struggled. "Ano, Shinya..." Kyo laughed, and Shinya pulled him back to the bed, pinning him down on it. The bishounen wasn't as delicate as he looked. He sat down over Kyo, who tried to free himself, but had no succes. "No chance. You'll have to be my slave."Shinya got hold of Kyos hair and made him arch his head back a bit, then bowed down to kiss him greedy. Kyo was startled, but moaned soft under Shinyas lips, as their tongues met, and he noticed how much he missed that. He shouldn't have stopped having sex with Shinya for that long. His arms slung around Shinya and pulled him down, and Shinya began to let his lips travel down Kyos neck. Kyo moaned again, biting his lip, pressing Shinya near, when suddenly he heard tones from below. A guitar playing... his song? Kyo hopped out of the bed, leaving Shinya staring at him startled. "Shinya - I'm sorry..." He rushed out of the door, and Shinya sank back on the bed, biting his lip and trying to suppress any emotion. If he didn't do that now, he knew, he'd cry. And he couldn't stand that now. His head was starting to ache and he stood up. He stepped into the bathroom and watched himself in the mirror. His eyes began to redden. 'No, Shinya...'he ordered himself, "It's not worth it.'He shoved some cold water into his face. 'So he really doesn't want me anymore... doesn't want to have sex with me..." Shinya could feel his chest aching, but ignored it. He gulped and went down to have breakfast. "What the hell-" Kyo shouted when he rushed in the lobby. Kaoru was sitting in an armchair, the sheets in front of him. And playing the melody line of HIS composition, Mya standing next to him and smiling at Kyo. "Ah, Kyo-cha... Kyo-kun! I gave the sheets to Kaoru, it doesn't matter to you , does it?" She asked innocently. "Yes it DOES!" Kyo fumed. "I wanted to do it by myself! This is MY song - " - "And it will stay yours, don't worry." Kaoru threw in lazily. "Go mess up someone others compositions!" Kyo hissed when Kaoru took a pencil and noticed something on the sheets. "C'mon, Kyo, calm down. I didn't say it wasn't good."Kyo shrugged. Why had he been so angry? It wasn't really because of Kaoru, but more because of Shinya. He was so hot on Shinya and he really missed sex with him. "Sorry, Kaoru... um... you think it's good?" Kaoru nodded and looked back on the sheets. "You may do some things with the arrangements, but all in all, it's really good. It's pure love. I fell a bit dizzy playing it... May I guess whom you wrote it for?"Kaoru grinned and winked. Kyo stuck his tongue out. "What do you think? Die of course!" Behind the door, Shinya sank again the wall. He didn't see the wink of Kaoru and didn't hear more than the last two sentences. What the hell had Die to do with that???
 

Comments: What rid me??? The headline didn't fit at all. Well, don't burn me, pleeeeee~eeease. I'm not really satisfied with this part - it's not what I wanted it to be. Many misunderstandings between Shinya and Kyo programmed. Sigh What do you do, silly guys??? ^.^ I'm sorry, but I'm messing 'round with times... This all happens inbetween some days, but I have no clue in which order...

-> look forward to Chapter 5: Don't tell me it's a GUY!

Don't tell me it's a GUY?!

23.12. Shun's warm arms embraced Kaoru gently and Kaoru kissed Shun. "Mh... I missed you." Shun smiled. "I'm 'appy you found my letter."Kaoru grinned back. "It wasn't that hard to find."Shun held Kaoru's face and stroke his hair aside with his thumbs. "Could it be you got prettier?"Kaoru stuck his tongue out. "Stop saying such things! I know you're lying."He put on a sexy pout. "Why did you have to leave me so early?" This question nagged on Kaoru since he'd found the letter. "My family." Shun sighed. "My parents. They'd ring up the police if I didn't show up at breakfast. As if I was 6 and not 26." He rolled his eyes and Kaoru giggled. "So they're worrying about lil Shu-chan?" He teased. "Didn't your caring mother notice that cute lovebites?"Kaoru stroke over Shuns neck and shoulder. "I'm glad she didn't. To be 'onest, I dunno wether she did, but at least she didn't say anything. In difference to my dearest sister." Kaoru giggled harder. "You've got a sister?" Shun nodded. "She's 16 and awful childish."Kaoru took a deep breath. "And - what did she say?""Oh, she made some jokes and so,"Shun declined. "Does she know I'm a guy?"Kaoru asked interested. "Guess. At least she should. Really, deep down in their minds they all know I'm gay. But my parents didn't give up 'ope about me finding a girl and marrying and settling down... All this stuff. 'oliday is the only time I 'ave to be with them nearly all day. So they're infiltrating me their marriage-propaganda."Shun looked unnerved. Karu took Shuns hand and they walked a bit. "I'd make a blissful bride." Kaoru joked, but Shun looked at him with an unreadable statement in his eyes. Kaoru's gaze turned worried. When Shun noticed that, he smiled back at Kaoru. "Yeah, you surely would."And Kaoru beamed again. "We have to go somewhere, I'm cold..." Kaoru suddenly stated. Shun arched one eyebrow. "At mine or at yours?" he asked with a look on his face you just couldn't get wrong. Kaorus grin grew more personal. "At yours." He whispered. "We did it at mine last night." Kaoru looked around the neaty bungalow. "It's mine. We'll be undisturbed."Shun threw the keys on a table. "It's nice."Kaoru established. "Where's the bedroom?"Shun laughed. "You're way forward." Kaoru smiled. "I didn't mean we had to have sex right away. I was just interested in where it is." He explained. "Believe me." His smile grew broader. "Wanna drink something?" Shun asked and made an invitational gesture towards the couch. Kaoru cuddled himself up into an armchair and nodded. "Of course." Shun brought along a bottle of red wine and some glasses that looked very expensive. Kaoru took one with an elegant gesture and cuddled up into the armchair again, looking at Shun warmly. He was handsome, no question. His kinda short, dark brown hair was messy, which made him look even more cute. He had dark, magnetic eyes. Though the hair-and eyecolour nearly fit, he didn't look really japanese. Kaorus eyes wandered down the slim, but muscular body. Mh. His lips curved into a smile. "Like what you see?" Shun asked and Kaoru startled from his thoughts and gazes and blushed a bit. "Mh, I guess." He answered and grinned again. "Tell me, what're you doing?"He asked. Shun shrugged. "I've studied journalism and now I'm working at a small editorial office in France. But I'd like to quit there and try something else... I mean, I love my job, but I 'ate that office. By the way, my minor subject was Japanese." Kaoru sighed. "I'd never thought someone would really want to study THAT."He laughed. "What're you doing at that office?"Shun put his glass down. "Nothing really important. Writing some articles, making 'eadlines, news... Things that 'ave to do with a newspaper. At least I'm out of that dogsbody-time."Kaoru snickered, imagining Shun running around and fetching coffee. "And you? What're you doing?" Shun asked interested and Kaoru stopped giggling. "Ano... I'm... making music." Kaoru admitted a bit shy. "Really?"Shun sounded very interested. "Yeah, I have a small band..." Damn you, liar. "We're making... well, music that's hard to describe."- "What do YOU do, then?"Kaoru shrugged. "I'm playing guitar and doing a bit of bandleading. Well, doing a bit of press-work and such stuff. And writing some songs. But our drummer - Shinya - is the best composer within the band, I'm just putting the riffs and leadguitars in..."Liar. "And are you succesfull?" Shun wanted to know now. "Hm... Well, it's okay. You could live from it, music's big business in Japan. But we're not one the REAL popular, I'd guess." LIAR. Kaoru shut up and stared at Shun, who gazed at the floor. "What kind of Music do you make?"He asked. "Erm, I already told you, it's hard to describe... mostly Rock, a bit of DarkRock, perhaps... " Shun looked at him with those dark, magnetic eyes. "And 'ow's your band called?"Kaoru gulped. No way, he couldn't know them. "Dir en Grey."He answered, his voice slightly shaking and regarding Shuns face. Shun showed no real reaction and so Kaoru relaxed. 'You're childish!' he scolded himself, 'He wouldn't say anything if he knew you're pretty famous. It doesn't matter to your love, does it?' Suddenly Kaoru got up and knelt down in front of Shun, reaching up to stroke his hair and face, letting his fingers trail over Shuns soft lips and his neck. "Tell a bit more about you. I wanna know everything. Know you inside out."Shun kissed his fingertips when they reached his lips and nodded. "Okay then... let me see..." They talked until it got really dark, it had to be around midnight or so, emptying the bottle of wine. Finally, Kaoru took Shuns hand and winked. "You haven't shown me the bedroom yet..." Kaoru nearly died when Shun thrusted into him. Died of pleasure. He never experienced anything like that. This wasn't his first time to sleep with a man, not nearly, but none of his fromer lovers had been that affectionate, sensible, knowing exactly what do to, he seemed to sense his needs and wants. Kaoru climaxed nearly on time with Shun. Relaxing and lying down next to Kaoru, Shun let his fingers trail over Kaorus chest. Kaoru snuggled up to Shun. "Kaoru?"Kaoru nodded, his eyes half-closed. "Mh?"Shun stroke Kaorus hair. "You're very... different and special... I mean, I've never felt what I'm feeling now, but... Kaoru?" Shun looked at Kaoru, who had his eyes closed and was breathing steady. He'd fallen asleep. Shun smiled amorous and made himself comfortable very careful, not to wake Kaoru up. 'Stop it, Shun, this isn't the time for doubts.'he told himself. Shuns mother found the door unlocked when she came to the bungalow in the late morning. She entered it, gazing at the empty wineglasses and the bottle on the table. Suddenly, she heard sounds from the bedroom. 'So Shun's already up.' She entered the bedroom and froze. When Kaoru woke up, he stretched cosy, opened his eyes slowly, but there was no Shun. 'Not again..." he moaned in his mind, when he heard someone laugh. He glanced at the door, where Shun was standing with a pair of trousers on, leaned again the doorframe. "Hey, awake?"Kaoru laughed. "Not really. What're you doing there? Come here...!"Kaoru whined artificially. Shun laughed and went to the bed where Kaoru pulled him down. He pinned Shun down on the bed, positioning himself over Shun. Shun laughed. "Again? It's morning, you haven't even eaten yet!" Kaoru shrugged. "Do I look like I'd eat a lot?"He grinned. "I thought you'd like to make me a bit more awaked."He pushed his hips against Shun's playfully, and then bowed down to kiss Shun, flingering his arms around Shun's neck. "You like that game, do you?" Shun pulled him a bit nearer, caressing his back. Suddenly there was a yell from the door: "Shun!"Shun startled, and Kaoru spun round, then falling back next to Shun and pulling the blanket over himself. Shun's mother stood in the doorframe with a rather disgusted look and twinkling eyes. "Mum!"Kaoru sank back into the pillows, blushing a bit. What the hell... "I found the door unlocked, and so I..." She spotted Kaoru and frowned. "Erm..."Kaoru blushed heavier. "What??" Shuns mother took some steps nearer and gazed at Kaoru. "Don't tell me it's a GUY!"She threw some disgruntled looks at Shun. "Mum! Of course it is! And what the hell are you making here at THIS time?"Suddenly another voice sounded from behind Shuns mother. A female voice. "Mum? Haven't you found him yet?" A girl appeared at the door and started gazing at Shun, too. Then her eyes travelled to Kaoru. "OH MY GOD!!!"
 

Comments: hehehe, this is mean and sooooo embarrassing... families could be really bad... But what did she mean with "Oh my god!"?? You'll see... evil grin

-> look forward to Chapter 6: Get me if you can Yeah, ahem, we'll see... I don't like to spoil everything, but perhaps, we'll get things cleared...

Get me if you can

The morning before Christmas eve

Shun's sister pointed at Kaoru speechless and Shun's mother and Shun gazed at Kaoru who gazed at the girl. "That is... this is... You are..."- "Yeah?" Kaoru arched his eyebrows. "You are Niikura Kaoru, dammit!"she squealed. "You're guitarrist of Dir en Grey! I have all of your records! All of your interviews!" She jumped to Kaoru, who pulled the blanket a bit closer and snuggled up to Shun. "May I have your autograph? I adore you, and Kyo and Die and Toshiya and Shinya..."She didn't seem to have the need of catching any breath. Shun gazed at his sister and then at Kaoru. "What does she want?"Kaoru still looked at Shun's siter worried. "An autograph..."Kaoru responded. "Could.You.All.Please.Get. Out.Of.'ere!"Shun seethed with anger. "But I..." his siter wanted to insist. "Out!"Both women hurried out of the room and Shun sank back moaning while Kaoru was still gazing after them. "So that was your family?" he asked amazed. "Wait till you meet my father." Shun growled. "I'm sorry for that." Shun said in a low voice, holding Kaoru close to himself. "Doesn't matter. Don't apologize." Kaoru kissed Shun gently. "I was really looking forward to see you family." He sniggered. "I suppose we should get up then, shouldn't we?" "Ano, have you seen Kaoru yet?" Kyo asked Shinya politlely. "No." Shinya snarled, not even looking at Kyo. Kyo left the room again and sighed silently. "My Shinya..."Suddenly someone patted his shoulder. "What about 'Your Shinya'?"Die asked, grinning. "Hey, Mr. Superlover, where's Totchi?" Kyo asked. "Taking a shower." Die went on grinning. "And a sexy little thing like you shouldn't stand here moping. What's up on Shiny and you? C'mon... tell me..." Kyo shove his hand away, slightly angry. "Let me be, would you?"He turned away and hurried up the stairs, nearly knocking off Toshinya, who just came along. Die frowned. "What the hell..."Suddenly, a loud knock on the door was heard. Die stalked over to the door and opened it. He looked down a bit on a young girl with big suitcases, who was standing in front of him now. Her blond hair was dishevelled and her cheeks were red, but her big, green eyes twinkled. Die gazed speechless. "Hi!"Die gulped. "Erm... hi." She threw her suitcases into the doorway and stepped forward, shutting the door loudly. Suddenly, Mya's head plopped out of a door. "Hi, Mya-chan!!!" The girl waved. "Oh, my god...!"Suddenly, the girl rushed past Die and threw herself towards Mya, embracing her tightly and kissing her stormy. Die's jaw dropped, as did Toshiyas, who came down the stairs. "Mya-chan... I've missed you soooo much... and... I just had to come along, I've been so silly and all I wanted was to apologize and make everything how it was before we parted."The girl kissed Mya again. "My god... Sheila... I'd never expected you here! What the hell do you want?" The girl plouted. "So you aren't happy I'm here? You could tell me you aren't pleased to see me again. And I thought you'd miss me? Besides - who are all this weird guys?"She waved towards Toshiya and Die. "WEIRD??" Toshiya jumped down the stairs. "Whom do you call 'weird'?"She seized him up with arched eyebrows. "Just because you're looking like a bitchy drag queen doesn't mean you have to behave like one."Toshiya gazed at her speechless. "Um...Sheila... of course I'm happy to see you again, luv, I was just surprised... come in, dear. Please..."She led Sheila into the living room, and left a startled Die and an angry Toshiya. "That girl..." - "Luv?"Die arched one eyebrow and gazed at Toshiya. Shinya sat cuddled up into the armchair, when Mya shove Sheila into the room. Shinya straightened when he spotted the two and tried to wink some tears away. "Oh... Mya-chan... erm..."He stopped when his gaze fell on Sheila. "Who's that girl...?" Mya hastened to Shinya. "None of your business. Say... what's up? You know you can tell me."Shinya shook his head. "Shouldn't bother you. Just some of my silly problems."Mya stroke his back and suddenly, Shinya wrapped his arms around her and sobbed. "Kyo and me... we're breaking apart, I know it..." Mya gazed at Shinya and Sheila frowned. "Tell me if I shall leave you alone."Mya whirled around. "No, no, it's just... He's got problems with his boyfriend..." Sheila arched her eyebrows. "Is there anybody in this house who ISN'T drag queen?" Shinya glared. "Who's that bitch?" Mya nearly fainted. "Whom do you call bitch, slut?" Sheila responded quietly. Shinya jumped to his feet, seething with anger. "Never call me slut again..."- "I'm just honest!"- "Bitch!" - "Slut!"The two stared at each other and Mya thought they'd just kill each other every moment, when suddenly an annoyingly happy Kaoru entered the room. "Hi, guys!" He waved and Sheila rolled her eyes. "Another one? Is there a nest of them here?"Mya grabbed Sheila's arm before Kaoru could respond anything and dragged her out of the room. Kaoru looked at Shinya, who had clenched his fists. "Who was that girl?"Kaoru asked, interested. "Hum?"Shinya gazed back at Kaoru big-eyed. "I asked you who that girl was?" Shinya shrugged and scratched his head. "Um... I have no idea, to be honest." "What should that be?"Mya snarled at Sheila, who looked surprised. "What do you mean?"she asked friendly. "You turn up, without even warning me and pretend that there has nothing happened, abuse my friends and the badn I'm managing and you ask me what has happened? I know you're forward, but that was too much!"Sheila's look turned even more surprised. "Does that mean you didn't get my telegraph?" - "Which telegraph?" Mya asked back. "We're snowed in. I didn't get any post at all!"Sheila blinked. "Then I apologize for turning up so surprisingly. But I had to see you. It's nearly Christmas and that's when I miss you most. I wanted to clear all misunderstandings."Sheila explained in a now calm and friendly voice. "There are no misunderstandings. You left me. End of the story." Sheila shook her head. "You left me. You went here and left me alone. You knew I couldn't come along. Not yet. You just disappeared and broke up with everything we built together. Leaving only an address." Mya hissed. "Why didn't you write, then? Or phone?" Sheila looked a bit remorsed. "I... I lost the address. You know I'm losing everything. And it just wouldn't show up. None of our friend knew where you were. I couldn't follow you and you showed no interest. There wasn't one single letter or phone call! It seemed you just forgot me! So don't put the finger on me for not writing! You were breaking contact!"Mya gazed at Sheila shocked. "I... I didn't know. I thought you were pouting and didn't want contact with me. I was angry, too. You weren't understanding at all. Going to Japan was my chance. The only chance I got. I wanted you to come along but your silly job was more important to you than me!"Sheila clenched her fists. "Like you! You wanted me to go to some country I don't know, I don't even know the language or costumes. To leave behind my family and friends, my career just for you to be happy! That's not fair, either! You never thought about what leaving you meant for me! Did you forget what made our relationship special? Didn't you want me with you? Never?" Sheila's voice turned into a whisper. "Always. I always wanted you with me, you know. Long before you actually showed interest for me. But you hurt me. And perhaps _" Mya stared on the ground, not really knowing what to say. "Perhaps it wasn't mean to be."- That's shit, and you know it, Miriam. Look, if we were meant to be together at all, everything had been easier. We know each other since how long exactly?"Mya looked at her earnest. "10 years, 3 months, 26 days."She took a look at her watch and thought a bit. "13 hours, 5 minutes and... 7 seconds exactly." Sheila checked her watch also. "14 hours and 3 minutes." She rectified and looked at Mya sad. "Drop that all, Mya. Do you still love me?"She bit her lip in expectation. Mya looked at her as if she asked the silliest question on earth. "Of course I do. I never stopped."Sheila bent her head to one side. "Then what are we talking about this at all? I love you, too. If I didn't do, I would've never been able to speek to you as freely as I did. Would you be so kind to kiss me right now and here?"Mya smiled and leaned forward. "Only if you apologize to Shinya."Sheila plouted. "Mh... okay. But only because it's you." Sheila grinned and flingered her arms around Mya neck. "C'mon..." she breathed and Mya kissed her gently, leaving all doubts behind to be cleared later. Much later. Comments: I'm a bad writer, I'm a bad writer...! hits her head on the desktop These scene is creepy! The story's boring! Thanks a lot for reading this, whoever. Yeah, I hope Sheila's not too mean for you. Deep down at the bottom fo her heart she's a really nice girl. But she has a problem with drag queens. You'll get out, why, later. And - surprise, surprise! Everything is getting even more soapier! -> look forward to chapter 7: The girl and the guitar

The girl and the guitar

Mya stretched cosy and inhaled the scent of Sheilas hair, who was lying next to her, asleep. She sighed and smiled in memory of the night. Argueing with Sheila could be that restful if you're used to an 55-hours-week. Suddenly, Sheila moved and yawned, blinking a little bit irritated. "Um... Mya?" She glanced at Mya, who smiled and nodded. "Good... What exactly happened? Oh, yeah, I recall."She grinned broadly and kissed Mya on her nose. "Good morning."- "Good morning. Slept well?" Sheila nodded, purring satisfied and cuddling up to Mya. "When will we have breakfast?"- "Whenever we want, dear."Sheila closed her eyes again. "Good. Let us rest a bit before getting up, like always."Mya nodded. Like always. When they got up and finally made out whose clothes were whose, after Sheila complained here suitcases still stood down in the doorway ("You want me to wear the same clothes as yesterday??"), after they finally found the key and opened the door (They're not just careful...^.^; ), Sheila stepped down the stairs with a beautiful smile and shining eyes, entered the dining room, dragging Mya behind her by her hand, and threw a happy: "Good morning, dears!" Into the round. Whole Dir en Grey froze, staring at Sheila and Mya. Suddenly, Shinya put his cup down with clatter. "No. I won't dine in the same room as her!"Sheila grinned and went towards Shinya, stroke over his hair and complained: "Don't plout, Cutie."She gave him a sunny smile which made him speechless. "By the way - nice bracelet. Tiffany's?"Shinya nodded, but then froze and stared at Sheila. "Where - " - "I like buying my jewelries at Tiffany's. (Yes! I had no other ideas) Must have been expensive." She declined. Shinya nodded. "It was a... present." He threw a hidden look at Kyo, who looked away. Sheila noticed and grimaced, but said nothing. The breakfast went along silent, but both Shinya and Toshiya left the table very early and very hasty. Die and Kaoru threw hidden looks to Sheila and Kyo pretended not to notice anything. Or perhaps he didn't. Suddenly, Sheila put her cup of coffee down. "Okay, guys - or whatever you are."Mya wanted to hide. She knew what would come. "You don't like me, right?" Kaoru shrugged and looked away and Die frowned. "I don't really know you, to be exactly... I'm just a bit irritated." Sheila grinned. "Irritated? Isn't your manager or whatever she is supposed to have a love life?" Kaoru gulped. "It didn't look like she had, to be exactly."Die explained and Sheila threw some amused looks to Mya. "I know what you're on. You're not irritated, but you have problems with her being dyke."Die looked uncomfortable. "Well, exactly..." - "I'm right if I suppose that this black-haired drag was your boyfriend, aren't I?"- "What do you mean by 'drag'?"Die sounded a bit aggressive. "C'mon, guy. You don't wanna tell me this thing is a 'real'bloke. Believe me, I recognize a drag queen if I see one!" - "Never call Totchi that again!"Die jumped up and Sheila got up, too. "What? 'Drag queen'?" Mya clutched Sheilas arm. "Sheila, c'mon, enough of that, drop it..." Sheila freed her arm and stared at Die. "No, I wanna know what exactly his problem is. You shouldn't have problems with a dyke if you're shaggin' men yourself! Do you believe you're better than us? That's your problem, isn't it? You can't handle it."Mya buried her face in her hands. "Sheila please... I don't want a fight here... Die's a bit larger than you..." - "He'll drop dead the moment he touches me and this is no joke!"Mya felt her face burning. She knew Sheila could be real dangerous, but Die didn't, and she didn't really know how dangerous Die was. At least, she didn't want to have anyone hurt. "So you'll stop me?" Die grinned, looking down on Sheila. "Wanna see my police record?"She returned earnestly. "Would you please stop that, the two of you?"Mya tried one last time, but Die and Sheila just ignored her. "Bloody guy, what do you want? You can't expect me to be nice to you if you and your fuckin' boyfriend treat me like you do!" Die grinned mischievous and suddenly pinned Sheilas arms to the wall, making her seem helpless. "So what did you say? About me droppin' dead?"- "Screw you guys. I never liked any of you." Violently and with all her might, Sheila kicked her knee into Die's abdomen. The guitarist let out a startled and painful gasp and gazed at Sheila, who rubbed her wrists. Mya closed her eyes, knowing what to come now. Kyo was asleep on the kitchen table. "Dammit, that little bitch."- "Keep still, Rambo!" Toshiya protested and pressed an icy cold washcloth against Die's swollen eye. "You're Numskull, both of you! You fought with a lady!" - "I fought with a bitch!" - "Die, you shouldn't call her that." - "Do you know what she called you?" Toshiya grinned. "Do you know what I called her?"He sighed and threw the washcloth away. "She already apologized. So what? This is forgotten. We've been bitches, the both of us." Die shook his head. "You don' understand, Totchi. She insulted you! I couldn't..." Toshiya placed one finger over Die's lips. "So I'm worth such a fight to you?"He smiled happily. "Oh, Die-kun, that's so sweet... I mean, she nearly killed you.." - "C'mon!" Die protested, and Toshiya pressed his finger down more firmly. "I should be grateful, shouldn't I?" Toshiya grinned and let his eyes travel down Die's chest, his abdomen... Die felt Toshiyas gaze and was infected by the grin. "Indeed."Toshiya softly pressed Die down on the bed. "You're really sexy, y'know?" he asked huskily, while letting his fingertips travel over Die's cheek, his neck, his collarbone, and finally reaching the collar of his shirt and unbuttoning it. "Yeah, sexy... headstrong, silly, unnerving, macho-like... but incredible adorable." He had undone the last button and shove the shirt down Die's shoulders. Die arched his back to help him get rid of the shirt. Toshiya slid it halfway down his arms, then seizing it and making his arms clutch to his side, he forced Die to straighten up. "That's how I like you best..."he whispered even more huskily. Die could feel Toshiya's arouse rise and he closed his eyes while his lips met Toshiya's and Toshiya thrusted his tongue deep into Die's mouth, then making them part again. "Like that." He whispered and Die knew what he meant. "Then let me go."Toshiya let go of his shirt and bowed down to let his tonuge travel over Die's abdomen and his chest. Die moaned softly and flingered his arms around Toshiyas waist, pulling the delicate man nearer. Their hips rubbed against each other and Toshiya groaned. "My god..."Die grinned and suppressed a comment that would have made Toshiya explode. But the atmosphere was definitely too hot for that. And he wanted it to stay like that. Toshiya bit up his neck, and Die let out a little cry of pain and surprise when Toshiya sucked the delicate skin of his neck hardly. "Iie!"Toshiya looked up startled. "What? I could stop any moment, y'know."Die grinned lazily and shook his head. Toshiya wrapped his arms aorund the older man's neck and kissed him gently but passionatly-firmly. Die's hands undid Toshiyas shirt blindly and caressed his back gently. Toshiya moved cosily under his touches and gasped softly. "You're unbelievable..."Die didn't answer, but stroke Toshiyas back lightly and felt the body in his arms shiver. Toshiyas tongue travelled deeper again, and Die arched his back passionately, wantig to feel his lovers lips and tongue everywhere. Which wasn't impossible. Not for Toshiya. Kyo yawned, when he heard argueing from the living room. "That wasn't necessary, was it?" - "What do speak of? He provocated me! And goddammit, he didn't get much more than a black eye and some bruises. I was careful."Mya sighed and shook her head, then looked at Sheila puzzled. "I have to work with this guy. I can't do if you kill him." - "You really think I would be able to?"Sheila looked flattered and Mya rolled her eyes. Sheila was treating her swollen lip and some bruises with arnica tincture. It was becoming evening, Kaoru was away - again - Toshiya and Die were upstairs in their bedroom, after Sheila and Toshiya had a nice little fight about who hurt who really and then discovered their passion for clothing and that they - after all - perhaps liked each other a bit. Shinya was in the same room, but reading, and just sometimes throwing some orientating looks into his environment. Suddenly, Kyo entered the room, stretching his arms. "Gomen, minna-san, I fell aslee- Wha!"He jumped back a little when he saw Sheila and his eyes widened. Sheila got up from her seat slowly. "Kyo...?"Kyo rushed forward and nearly jumped at Sheila, hugging her. "Sheila-chan!!!" Sheila sniggered and hugged Kyo back. "Ne, Kyo-chan..."Kyo grinned broadly and looked at Sheila. "My god, what're you doing here??? I didn't even notice you... How are you? Haven't seen each other for some time, have we?"The both continued chatting excitedly, obviously very happy to see each other. Finally, Sheila took Kyo's arm and whispered something into his ear. Sheila sniggered and nodded when he replied something, following him upstairs. Shinyas eyes narrowed at the sight of the two. He seized Sheila up and thoughts whirled around in his head. Who was that girl and where did she know Kyo? The both seemed to be pretty familiar. Too familiar, indeed. Why the hell was she calling him '-chan'? Suddenly, someone touched Shinya's shoulder. "Shinya?" Mya looked at the weird statement in Shinyas eyes. "Hun?"Shinya looked at her puzzled. "No, it's nothing. Is it okay if I leave you here?"Mya asked and Shinya nodded. "' Course." Mya nodded and went up the stairs, sorrows nadging her mind. There was definitley something wrong, but why? What was the point with Shinya and Kyo?
 

Comment: Waaaaaaaaaaaaaah! The headline had nothing to do with the story! It should've had! Well, I'll get it... perhaps...... No, seems like Die and Sheila are good friends, ne? giggles Her and Toshiya do have a lot in common, as you'll see in the next chapters..

-> look forward to: The girl and the guitar II Finally with that what the headline promises. Tears, Tears, Tears. It'll get sooooooo fluffy and sappy. Kleenex out! This is an order! Sniff ;_;

The girl and the guitar II

"Give it to me! C'mon, Kyo-chan, pleeeeeeaaaase...." Sheila begged, sitting on the bed and waiting desperately. "Stop calling me Kyo-chan, will you?" Kyo winked at her grinning. "Never. You've always been my Kyo-chan and you'll always be. Now come here like I ordered you!" She giggled when Kyo crawled towards here. "There you have what you want!" He threw some sheets of paper at her. "Nasty thing you are." She replied, stucking her tongue out. "I see, you did some on it. Didn't change the guitar parts, did you? They were perfect, put all my heart into it." Kyo shook his head. "After we recorded I couldn't just change it. But they're quite good, yeah. Sometimes." She threw a pillow at him. "Nasty." He sniggered and laid his head on her shoulder, looking at the sheets, too. "What do you say?" She nodded slowly, her eyes travelling over the lines. "If you recorded it like that, it's fine. Shame I couldn't stay till work was completed.. Hope your tasty little boyfriend likes it, or I'll scratch his eyes out. You put so much afford into it. Wish someone'd ever do that for me." She sighed. "You're really sweet, though you don't act like it. It's tiring you, is it? I know it, you can't deny." Kyo laughed. "It's scaring how good you know me. We never spent much time with each other." - "And we won't begin now. I have better things to do. I know you, that's all." She nodded again, looking satisfied. "You're together with Mya-chan, right?" Kyo asked. "Something like that. We share one bed - sometimes - and if she wants me, I'm there, no matter what. If she feels half the feelings I feel, it's enough." Sheila sighed. Kyo smirked. "You don't know the important part of it yet."Sheila looked inquistive. "What? Don't tell me you're gonna - WHOA!"Kyo had pulled out a small box from under the bed and opened it in front of Sheila. "Oh my god, Kyo, this is, this is, this..." - "Name it. This is an engagement ring."Sheila pretended to faint on the bed. Then she got up again, even more inquisitive als before. "Tell me about Shinya. I wanna know about that fabulous guy. You weren't really talkative when we recorded." Kyo shrugged. "There's not much to say. People don't know, not even Die, Toshiya and Kaoru, how long we're actually together. Only we two know. We know about our past, our present, and our future. It is like, when we first met, we gazed at each other like... how long? Five minutes? Till some friends introduced us. I was fascinated. I mean, you couldn't be something different, could you? At least not me. Man, he was so gorgeous. He still is. I adore him I would - dunno, do everything to please him. This couldn't be described, y'know? It's kinda..." "...Love. That's how you'd call it." Shinya stroke the hair out of his eyes. "Do you actually know how it is to have someone like him? It's incredible. I never thought loving someone could be that... good. Such a good feeling wherever you go and whatever you do, someone near you, always. I never liked people a lot. Most of the time they scared or irritated me. But him... I could have him with me every day. I'd really long to." Shinya sighed and looked at Kaoru, who lay next to him, staring at the ceiling, thinking. Then, Kaoru nodded. "I understand." Shinya sighed again and let himself fall back, so that then stared at the ceiling, too. "You don't know how long we're together actually, do you?"Kaoru thought. "It has to be about 3 years now..." Shinya started sniggering. "3 years? That's cute! You really think that, do you?"Kaoru looked at him startled. "Isn't it like that?"Shinya grinned. "Baka. Six." - "What?" Kaoru looked puzzled. "Six years. We're together about six years now."Kaorus eyes widened. "Six?" He breathed. "You never... Why six?"Shinyas eyes grew dreamy. "We met before Dir en grey or La:Sadies."Kaoru didn't believe his ears. "... before?" Shinya nodded. "I was too shy to speak with him, so I just sat there gazing at him, and always looked away when he met my gaze... It was awful. Then a friend of us introduced both of us, and it didn't even take us a long time to come together. Both of us were still figuring out whether to try with girls or guys, but that didn't seem necessary. It was just as if... everything had been cleared long before. I think I never even told him I love him. But I'm not so sure." - "Whether you still love him?" Shinya shook his head wearily."No. Whether everything's still like then. The emothions and all that."Kaoru looked even more puzzled. "Of course it isn't. Don't emotions and all these things change? It couldn't always be like the first day."Shinya gazed at him big-eyed. "Why not?" he asked inncoently. "It has been like that for six years." Kaoru rolled his eyes. "But..." Shinya suddenly whispered near Kaoru's ear. "I'm not willing to give up yet."Kaoru looked at him and he saw the strange glint in Shinya's eyes. "What?" He asked suspicious. Shinya grinned, pulled something out of his bag and held it in front of Kaoru's face. It was a small box, small enough for..."An engagement ring???" Kaoru asked breathlessly and Shinya giggled, nodding. "The questions is whether he says Yes or No. To be or not to be..." Shinya declamed and held the box in front of himself like the skull of Hamlet. Kaoru laughed. "You're crazy, Shin-chan."Shinya nodded again. "I have to be if I'm together with someone like Kyokyo for six years." Kaoru had fallen into bed tired, when the sun began to rise. He had been with Shun until then, and he already missed him again. He sighed and rolled himself on his side, staring at the wall. This seemed unreal, if there hadn't been the lovebites and the feeling inside of his tummy, he wouldn't have believed it. He met this guy a few days ago, and now, it was as if they had known each other for years. This had no chance, he knew. This couldn't be good. They would never meet again, once Shun returned to France. But this wasn't the time to think about it. Kaoru hadn't noticed he'd fallen asleep, till something awakaned him. Stones were thrown against his window. He raised sleepily and dizzily. "'ey, 'oney!" This was Shun. Kaoru jumped out of the bed, rushing towards the window and opening it hastily. "Shu-chan? What the hell are you doing here?"Shun stood in front of his window, only one floor lower. "Wait! I'll be right down!" Kaoru put on some jeans and a pullover hastily, rushed down the stairs as silent as possible and out of the door, where Shun embraced him gently. "Hi."he breathed into Kaoru's ear and Kaoru snuggled up to him, sighing: "I missed you."Shun laughed in a low, husky voice. "Again?"Kaoru nodded and held Shun tighter. "Why did you come?" he asked, his lips sligthly touching Shun's neck and making Shun shiver. "I... wanted to tell you something..."- "Um... couldn't you do that after the sex...?"Kaoru loved to feel Shun tremble under his hands and breath. Shun stiffened and shove Kaoru away from him. Kaoru looked at him startled. "Perhaps I won't be there then anymore." Shun murmured. Kaoru was even more startled. "What? What did you say?" Shun looked remorsefull. "I'm leaving, Kaoru. My flight is going very early this morning. Sorry." Kaoru had grewn really speechless. Shun didn't dare looking at Kaoru or he'd have been breaking down with apologies. "But... no, this is... is impossible... is too early..." He tried to put that shocked feeling into words. He had never lost words before, but this feeling was like someone teared something out of him suddenly. It hurted horribly. "Things... Things like that don't happen..." Suddenly, he grabbed Shun collar violently, staring at him painfully, yelling: "Tell me you aren't leaving!!!"Shun stared back at Kaoru. "KaoKao, please... don't make it even more difficult." Kaoru let go of his lover, shaking his had remorsed. "We both knew it had to end like this, but, Kaoru..." Shun embraced his lover again, gently, carefully. "Don't let me leave like this. This is more than just sex, isn't it?" Kaoru nodded, burying his face in Shun's neck. Shun felt a single tear roll down his cheeks and gulped. "Promise, Kaoru, promise to be mine?"He buried his burning face in Kaorus hair and felt Kaoru nodding. "Whatever you want. Will you be mine, koi, forever?" Shun felt like crying with happiness and nodded. Kaoru didn't really feel it, but he knew what was the answer. It had to be like that. "I love you, Kaoru... 'ow do you say that in japanese?" Shun raised his head and Kaoru did the same. Both stared at each other lovingly, and Kaoru smiled. "Aishiteru."He breathed and Shun nodded. "Exactly that. Whatever." Kaoru had to snigger. "You're incorrigible." Shun laughed, also. "Thank you for that. May I give it back?" Kaoru hit him on the head gently. "Baka. Don't say such things to your precious." Shun looked around. "My precious? Where??"Kaoru started to laugh, but ended up with tears rolling down his cheeks. Shun cupped Kaorus cheeks with his hands. "Why are you crying? Tell me you're crying with 'appiness." Kaoru nodded, sobbing. "Something like that." He gave a smile, which showed exactly how much he suffered. Shun pulled him near agagin, desperately. "I'm sorry for letting you alone, I'm so sorry. I shall never leave you..." Kaoru sobbed again and then giggled. "We're not married, never forget." Shun smiled. "Not yet." Kaoru sobbed. "Oh yeah, let us run away together." He smiled and wiped his tears away. "I bet we have to make the best out of this, ne, koi?"He looked at Shun. "Koi?" Shun frowned. "Means lover." Kaoru explained. Shun nodded understandingly. "Oh, yes, of course." Kaoru smirked. "Baka."He tilted his head to one side. "And you wanna leave me like that? Unsatisfied?" Shun grinned. "Which satisfaction do you long for?" Kaoru grinned back unmisunderstandingly. This was a bad try. But it was like he said. Make the best out of this. Toshiya climbed up the stairs to look after Kaoru, who hadn't shown up for breakfast and lunch either. He knocked slowly, but pulled the door open without waiting for an answer. He froze, when Kaoru looked up at him with that incredibly sad look on his face. "My god, Kaokao..." Toshiya sat down next to him, wrapping an arm around his shoulder. Kaoru let his head rest at Toshiyas shoulder. "Totchi..."he whimpered. "What happened? Tell me." Kaoru just shook his head. "Nothing to... bother you." Totchi let out a sound of indignation. "C'mon, Kaokao, I know all people always think I'm superficial and an emotionless bitch and all this things and perhaps I am, but I know the way the cookie crumbles when it comes to love. It is about love, isn't it? Crying for your mysterious lover?"Kaoru nodded, smiling again, wiping away the tears with his Kleenex. "He's gone back to France." Toshiya stayed silent. "It had to end like that, right? And you knew that?"Kaoru nodded again. "But I didn't want to think about it."Toshiya nodded. "Of course. Do you think I want to think about what happens with me and Die when we'll return? Don't you think I hope this little thing we have could last when we go back to reality? Do you think I'd want to think about that? I don't like caring about the future, you know. I want to live now and care about the future tomorrow. But he didn't leave you like that, or did he?" Kaoru shook his head. He remembered the last night they had shared. Good, affectionate, desperate sex. But was that all to stay in his mind? The only thing to remember, the good sex they had? Toshiya took his face into both hands and wiped the tears away with his finger. "You look horrible, when you cry. Like me." Kaoru smiled. "You are our great, strong leader-san and you won't give up that easily."Toshiya winked. "You gave him your address, didn't you? E-Mail and all?" Kaoru nodded, still smiling. Toshiya was really calming him down. "You are Niikura Kaoru, my Kaokao, who always straightens me up when I'm down. Now it's my turn. Hold your head high and smile, dammit! Who could ever forget about you? He won't, I'm sure. And if he does, I'll go to France by myself and kick his bloody ass!"Kaoru smiled and took Toshiyas hands into his own. "It's okay, Totchi-chan, I'll be fine. Go down and join the others again. Go care for Die. I'll be down soon, too." Toshiya stood up, going to the door. When he opened it, he threw one last glance at Kaoru. "Aishiteru." He whispered and Kaoru smiled at him. "Dito."Totchi blew him a kiss. "And you promise to come down?" Kaoru declined. "I promise. I'm really starving." Totchi smirked and disappeared from the door. Kaoru sighed and clenched Shuns pullover to his chest again. "You're Niikura Kaoru, right. You're the great leader-san and your guys need you down there."Deeply sighing, he got up from bed.
 

Comments: Oh my, it couldn't get much worse... this is all too sappy... Hey, don't blame me for being pathetic, I LUV that. I decided to dedicate this whole story to my dear svenni-chan, who's sooo kind to me and all that, always cheering me up and making me really happy, you know what with! ^.~ hug O.K., I'm getting sentimental, that's not good. Thx all guys I'm in contact with. You all are important.

-> Look forward to: Just put them under the Mistletoe and wait long enough... Kyo confuses Shinya and Shinya confuses Kyo even more... Die & Toshiya are also giving heartbreaking interesting performances and all Kaoru does is... well, guess twice, ne?

Just put them under the Mistletoe and wait long enough...

Chapter 9: Just put them under the Mistletoe and wait long enough... "Hihihi, stop that, please not, oh-uh, hahaha..." Sheila struggled, giggling and trying desperately to catch breath, when Kyos fingers tickled her nearly everywhere. Kyo knelt over her for letting her no chance to escape from his hands, and she squirmed under him laughing. "Say it! C'mon, just one more time!"Sheila shook her head, while tears ran down her cheeks. "Kyo-chan, stop..." Several gasps. "Could you guys please stop that? I mean, it's not really putting me up. Especially not today." Kaoru arched one eyebrow and threw them a look that showed exactly how childish he found that, over the edge of his book. "Your flirtations are really cute, but it's Christmas Eve, I really don't need that."- " Flirtations?" Sheila responded, while shoving Kyo away from himself. Kyo hit the ground with a painfull squeal. "Sheila-chaaa-aaaan!"Sheila sat down next to Kaoru, winking. "Sorry, Kaoru-kun. We should be more sensitive with you, shouldn't we?" Kaoru nodded slightly and Sheila gave him a kiss on his cheek. Then she picked up Kyo. "C'mon Kyo-chan, we'll continue that somewhere else."Kaoru rolled his eyes. Sheila dragged Kyo behind herself by his hand, when a very angry Toshiya rushed by, looking as if he would soon begin fuming, followed by a disturbed-looking Die who tried to calm Toshiya down, in vain as it seemed. "Totchi, I really didn't mean it that way, c'mon, you know exactly what I was talking about!" Toshiya turned round and Die grew silent because of the murderous glint in Toshiyas eyes. "I'm really wondering why it took me so long to notice. Fucking Totchi is quite nice, but he's really not useful for anything different, hm? I'm so fed up with you - Don't try! Your false protestations aren't making it better!"Die sighed and waved his arms in an upgiving manner. Sheila couldn't help grinning. "What should that grin be? This is funny, isn't it?"An angry Die turned towards her. Sheila raised her hands. "Ooh, Die-kun, that isn't the point. Don't let my grin disturb your nice little fight with your koi."- "Bitch, you really think this is funny, don't you??" Toshiya stepped in front of Sheila. "Let her be. This is a thing between you and me, she's got nothing to do with that." Die raised his eyebrows. "Oh, fine, at first her, now you, and all against me. This is really fine. Don't act as if you weren't having fun. This is what you wanted, fun. And I gave it to you! So what? Don't tell me you didn't know this was nothing serious." Toshiya gasped when Die turned round and left the room. Tears welled up his eyes, and Sheila began to stroke his back softly. "I'm sorry... did I destroy everything?"Toshiya shook his head and turned round to hug her. "It's my fault... I should've recognized earlier I meant it earnest and he didn't." He smiled a bit sadly and then gave a short, dry laugh. "If we were at home, I would need a run on the stores now." Sheila smiled back and stroke his hair. "And I'd come with you." Kyo smiled inwardly when he put the little box and the music sheets under the bed. This was gonna be fun. Of course he was a little bit afraid whether Shinya could... No, he wouldn't say No. This was impossible. Shinya was too good. But he acted so strangely the last days, as if he was unsure of his feelings. As if he was hiding something. After 6 years, Kyo would have thought that he knew Shinya inside out. Well, he guessed he was mistaken. Shinya sighed and put the box back under the bed. He was lucky that Kyo just didn't arrive in here. On the other hand, he wondered where Kyo was now. There weren't many places to go, but it seemed as if Kyo really managed to stay out of his way around 24 hours. There was an uncomfortable silence between them, one that hadn't been there for entire six years. This was kind of a long time, indeed. Shinya smiled at the thought of that time. How had he just been able to stand Kyo for all this time? Sure, he was unnerving and childish sometimes, sleeping at the worsest times of the day and staying up all night, emptying his fridge and waking him up every hour, just to tell him sweet little nonsense, for example just how much he loved him. This was unnerving when you heard it nine times a night. Though it could've been true. But on the other hand he was really cute, the way he smiled and made compliments, he hugged and snuggled up to Shinya after concerts or on the way home. He even prepared breakfast if he was in a good mood. And not asleep. Shinya sighed again, sinking back on the bed and grabbing the sheets. 'I'll die if I don't get good sex with you soon, Kyo-chan. And I swear, both of us will take a really long holiday after that.'Shinya smirked at that thought. Well, this was a good idea. He'd just say Die and Toshiya and Kaoru to fuck off and let them their rest, he'd cut off their telephones and throw away the mobiles, they won't answer the door nor doing something different. They'd spent all days in bed, like they did it in their first days. He knew he really missed that, but now wasn't the time to think about it. He had just this one chance. He'd see whether Kyo did still want him or not. Though the thought of Kyo leaving him nearly made Shinya squeal. No, he just had to keep hoping. Everything would turn out right. It had to or he wouldn't know what to do. Sheila entered the kitchen and found Toshiya, looking completely miserable. "Um... I was looking for Kyo, did you see him somewhere?"Toshiya gulped and shook his head. Sheila crossed her arms and leaned against the doorframe. "Erm... is there something I could do for you? You..." Toshiya shook his head again. "But I can see there's something wrong..." Sheila tried one last time. "I'll be fine, thank you."Toshiya responded with suffocated voice. Sheila went towards him and sat down in front of him. "No, you won't, I can see. Get rid of your pride and tell me what's up. Your love let you down?" Toshiya shook his shoulders. "You don't know what you're talking about." Sheila gave a dry smirk. "I don't know? Three years. It took us three years to come together, and when we were quite happy for the first time, everything seemed so wonderful, so gorgeous. We were having so much fun, enjoying each other so much. But suddenly, one morning, everything changed and all my silly little dreams about us exploded. I had been so anxious to be honest with her and myself, and suddenly I should believe we were meant to be parted? She just went away and made me understand I was nothing serious for her. Nothing to give other things up for. Her freedom or her career for example. Facing the reality, our relationship was just a shadow or a haunting dream or anything. You think I don't know this feeling?" Toshiya looked at her with burning eyes. "Where do you know it was like that?" Sheila shrugged. "I guessed." Toshiya sighed. "You guessed well." He lay his head down on his arms, which were folded upon the table. "I don't know when things changed between me and Die. I don't know if they did at all. But suddenly, we landed in bed with each other, and man, it was great. I never knew Die was gay, and probably he isn't at all. Perhaps he was just enjoyning me, another 'different' experience."Sheila sighed and got up, opening the fridge. "Beer?" She asked and Toshiya nodded. "It was fun, of course, but I guess for me it was a little bit more. He always made this jokes that let me get the impressions it wasn't earnest for him, but of course I just ignored it. Who wouldn't?" Sheila opened two bottles of beer and put one of them in front of Toshiya. "I have a bit more of that stuff in my room." She said, winking at Toshiya. Toshiya grinned in relief. "Yeah, I guess that's what I need. Wanna play cards?"Sheila grinned and nodded, while Toshiya pulled a set of cards out of his pocket and some cigarettes. "Hava a smoke?" Sheila grinned. "Wow, is that your heartache-first-aid-set? It's good, really." Toshiya nodded. "Thank you, bitch." Sheila shrugged grinning. "You're welcome, drag." They glared at each other, then suddenly started laughing madly. "Are you okay?" Kaoru asked from the door. "Oh yeah.." Sheila laughed. "Um, hey, wanna join our broken-heart-club? Fuck love and all this fluffy stuff?" Kaoru smirked. "Sounds good. Any rules?" Toshiya began to mix up the cards. "Drink, smoke, have fun and screw all the guys - " - "And girls!" - "And girls, that have ever broken our bloody heart, okay?"Kaoru took one cigarette from Toshiya and sat down. "Poker?" Both Toshiya and Sheila nodded. "We don't have enough players, do we?" Kaoru shook his head. "No, I guess we need two more players or we'll play something different, doesn't matter either." Some minutes later, the room was filled up with chat and laughter, when suddenly Shinya cleared his throat at the door. "Um, guys..." The three of them looked at Shinya excited, when suddenly Toshiya jumped up. "Hey, Shin-chan, it's great you're here, c'mon, you fulfill all conditions for joining the "Heartbreak Hotel"-Club." He grabbed Shinyas arm and pushed him down on a chair. Shinya waved his hand with a disgusted look on his face. "Whoa, could you all please stop smoking, this is annoying." Sheila laughed and filled a glass with Vodka for Shinya. "Drink some of these and you'll soon don't notice any of the smoke anymore." Shinya stared at the glass. "What is it?" Sheila sipped at her own glass. "Vodka, dear. Makes you forget all the bloody guys that are giving a fuck about our feelings and don't satify us at all." Shinya thought of long, lonely nights and nodded wistfully. "See?" Sheila asked and poured some Vodka into Kaorus glass, who emptied it with one gulp. "Okay, it's whose turn?" Sheila and Toshiya pulled out some cards again and soon they were in a hot fight and Shinya was watching them, laughing and joking. "Shin-chan, I never knew you could be that charming! " Sheila exclaimed and flingered her arms around Shinya, who was emptying another bottle of wine they'd gotten from wherever. Shinya smirked smugly. "You don't know me, don't you?" Toshiya giggled. "Oh yeah, Shinya is our sexy, charming ladyboy and all the guys are lying to his feet." Sheila kissed Shinyas cheek. "So do I. Shame you're gay." Shinya seized Sheila up. "Mh, you're really tasty, you know, shame you're dyke." Sheila laughed and sat down again, when suddenly Kaoru pulled something out of a cupboard. "Hey, guys, look, lots of Christmas stuff. Hey - this is a mistletoe, isn't it?"Toshiya gasped, grabbing it out of Kaorus hand. "Oh, do you know the custom? You put two people under the mistletoe and then they have to kiss each other... Okay, who could we play that little game with?" Sheila declined laughing. "Aw, come on, Totchi, there are no heterosexuals in here, that wouldn't work very good." Totchis face lit up and he climbed on a chair, holding the mistletoe over Sheila and Shinya. "C'mon, turtledoves, you've been flirting the entire evening, stand up for a little kiss in friendship." And then he winked at Kaoru. "And after that, sweetheart, I'm getting a lay on you!" Kaoru nodded laughing. "Sure, honey." Sheila stood up, and then Shinya followed, holding her because both of them weren't standing really sure anymore. Toshiya giggled. "Okay, guys, c'mon. One, two three...!" Shinya smirked and pressed his lips on Sheilas. She giggled. Toshiya was jumping with amusement. "Aw, c'mon guys, let's have a little tongue in there!" Sheila giggled even more. "Aw, Sheila-chan, I can't kiss you when you're giggling." Shinya drew back from her and Sheila gasped. "Sorry Shin-chan, it's just... You're the first guy I kiss since... 10 years or something, and even you look like a girl!"Toshiya was still hopping. "Let's have another try, Shin-chan, this wasn't a real kiss." Sheila tried to suppress the giggle when Shinya placed his own lips gently, but firmly over her own. "Okay, and now a bit of tongue. Do us a favour, let's have a little fanservice in here!"Shinya smiled and Sheila smirked, too, when she let her tongue stroke over Shinya lips, who opened them willingly. Toshiya giggled excited and even Kaoru couldn't suppress a smirk. Toshiya cheered, while Sheila and Shinya even deepened their kiss. "Seems they've found another hobby." Kaoru added grinning. Suddenly, a voice came from the door. "Sorry, have you seen Shi-" Kyo stopped abruptely when he spotted Sheila and Shinya. Toshiya stopped hopping and cheering too, and the arm with the Mistletoe sank. Shinya withdrew when the silence fell and his eyes widened when he saw Kyo staring at him and Sheila. Kyos jaw fell and Sheila clapped her hand over her mouth. Kyo stumbled back and Shinya made some steps forward. "Kyo..." Kyo shook his head and turned round, leaving the room hastily. "Kyo!" Shinya stumbled towards the door, crashing some chairs out of the way. Sheila only shook her head. "Me again. Seems I'm really not bringing luck or anything." Totchisa stroke her back lightly. "Hush, it's not your fault. Perhaps they'll just make up now. They need a cause to let all of the problems come out." "Okay, what's the point?"Kyo turned round, fuming, after Shinya followed him through the room and up the stairs. "I don't know what you want." Shinya stared at him big-eyed. "After all, it was just a kiss." Kyo stared back. " Just a kiss? It was a french kiss, and the both of you really seemed to enjoy that!" Shinya was on the edge of seething. Why was this guy always bringing him up like that? "What do you want? You were the one who was always glued to her and flirtet around the whole day! Don't pretend that you'd have thought about my feelings anyway! As if this weeks hadn't been enough!" Kyo looked puzzled. "What do you mean with that?" Shinya felt his anger rise. Damn, it couldn't be that this guy had no idea what he was speaking of! "I don't wanna speak about it." He turned away, when suddenly Kyo grabbed his wrist. "But I wanna hear it." Shinya gave up defences. Okay, if he wanted it like that... "Kyo, have you ever noticed we didn't sleep with each other for 4 weeks? What do you think how I'm feeling if you suddenly turn away and storm out of the door as if you were haunted? Don't you want me anymore? Did you notice you don't return until late night and you let me alone most of the time? You changed towards me and you're always so distinct and unfriendly, with your thoughts far away, but not with me. What should I believe? You know what would be the most logical thought? You had a lover next to me. You have secrets and you won't tell me what you're hiding or what's worrying you. And dammit, I can't stand that! We're lovers since six years! Aren't we supposed to know each other and trust each other? Correct me, if I'm wrong, but I always thought I'd been something special to you as you're to me, but now, it seems as if everything's gotten... usual. I thought you hated usual things. Then are you gonna hate me after six years?" Shinya had whispered the last sentence towards Kyo, who was staring morosly at him. Shinya lowered his head. Damn it, he had said too much. He knew it. What if Kyo just turned away, again? Kyo let go of his wrist. "I..." He didn't finish the sentence nor did something different. He just stood there, trying to find words. Then, in a sudden mood, he grabbed Shinyas wrist again and pulled him towards the door of their bedroom. Shinya whined of the sudden movement and stumbled behind Kyo. Kyo dragged Shinya into the bedroom and forced him to sit down on the bed. Shinya glared at him as if he was mad. What happened to him? He had this concerned look on his face. Shinya knew this look. Kyo looked as if he'd just make the decision of his live. He sat down in front of Shinya, on the floor. "Shinya, I have to tell you you're very brave, because I'd have been to coward to say all the things you said. I never realized you were feeling like this, I hope that doesn't mean I don't know you after all these years. I... We grew apart during these weeks, I'm afraid. I didn't treat you as good as I should've done, not to speak of sex... Don't think you aren't beauiful anymore, because you've always been and you'll always be. And I wanted to make the suggestion, that we'd perhaps just break up by now..." Shinyas eyes widened, "... for having a new try and a new start, so that we can make it better." Kyo lowered his head and held the little box with the ring in front of Shinya, open. Shinya stared at the ring amazed, then suddenly started grinning, and cracked up with laughter. He threw himself back on the bed, laughing and giggling. Kyo glared at him, then glared at the ring. "One moment... this isn't the ring I bought you!" Shinya shook his head and got up, still laughing. "No, it surely isn't. Because this is the ring I was going to give to you!" Kyos jaw dropped - again. "You? To me??" He asked confused, and Shinya nodded, standing up from bed and kneeling down in front of Kyo, he took Kyo hand and asked, suddenly serious: "That's like... asking for your hand in marriage. Only that I can't marry you. But I'd like to give you a promise and ask the same of you." Kyo nodded absently, then he remembered his own ring and looked around puzzled. "But - where's your ring, then?" He grabbed under the bed again, and found his own box directly next to where he found the other box. He took it and held it in front of Shinya, opened. Shinyas eyes widened. "Oooooohhhh..." he sighed, "It is... it is... great, I mean..." Shinya was running out of words and just gazed at the ring. "Um, so..." Kyo gulped and took Shinyas hand and slipped the ring on it. "Will you be mine, forever, in good and bad times, in health and illness, until dead divorces us, and so on." Shinya gazed at Kyo amazed and nodded slightly. "Sure." He whispered, then took Kyos hand and did the same Kyo had done. "So I ask the same thing of you, Niimura Tooru, will you take Terachi Shinya, sitting right in front of you, as your dearest beloved and love him until death divorces you? And all this illness-stuff of course." Kyo smirked and then nodded. "I will, I guess." Shinya nodded satisfied, then they folded their fingers into the other's and stared down at their hands silently. Shinyas other hand suddenly stroked over Kyos cheek, down his neck and Kyo raised his gaze. Shinyas eyes twinkled. "So... what about Honeymoon?" He asked smirking, and Kyo returned the smirk before he pounced onto Shinya like a hungry wolf, ready to ravish his prey. Shinya giggled and threw his head back, his back arching up to be pressed against Kyos body when he hit the ground. Kyo groaned when he felt Shinyas body against his own. Shinya giggled again. "Mh... Kyo... It never took you long, but this is surprising."Kyo growled. "4 weeks...!"Shinyas giggling turned into a soft moan, when Kyos hands slid down his body. Mh... Such skilled hands... Kyo smiled satisfied to himself when he heard Shinyas little testifies to his pleasure. There was a long, long night to come...
 

Comments: I hope I really make you suffer with my senseless hints. Evilgrin But wasn't the proposal such a nice thing...? ;_; Okay, I'm afraid, I have to dedicate this chapter to Kyo and Shinya themselves... ^.^ You know you're meant, don't you? And you're the first to read this... And Kuri. This whole thing is also dedicated to Kuri-chan. =^.^=

Look forward to: Late for dinner I'll bring it to its end, I promise. Just one more chapter and you're done.

Late For Dinner

Chapter 10: Late for Dinner
 

Toshiya sighed as he fastly opened the door. Suddenly, there was a loud 'Klonk!' and another 'Grmph!' and when he opened the door fully, a nearly unconscious Die rolled on the floor in front of him. He held his face and groaned. "Oh my god!" Toshiya shrieked. He knelted down next to Die. "What have I done..? Are you okay..?" He muttered. Die groaned again. "Err..yes.." he answered and set up slowly. Toshiya helped him up. "I..I bring you to the bedroom..lay down.." Die suddenly shook his head, but then moaned. "I'll bring you to the bedroom now!" Toshiya exclaimed in a very dominant voice and pulled Die to the bedroom. When he wanted to lay Die down, he suddenly saw that box on the bed. He let Die fall down suddenly. Luckily, Die fell on the bed. Toshiya grabbed that box. "What's that?" He asked amazed. Die cringed. Toshiya opened the box and gasped. "Oh.My.God! Who put that here?" he looked around nervously. Die discreetly lifted one hand. "OhmygodOhmygodOhmygod.." Toshiya held that box, then he suddenly shrieked and glomped Die. He groaned again. "Oh, my sweet, loveable D-chan.." he muttered. Die grinned with pain. "Well..I.." Toshiya let go of him. "What, you?" Die scratched his head. There was a long, red stream across his face where the door had hit him. It was slowly getting blue. "Well.. I wanted to apologize to you, but.. I dunno, I just couldn't speak to you.. and I thought..if I let you find that, you might be..well.. not that angry anymore..I'm so sorry, Totchi, really... I didn't mean it that way, really..do what you want..but..please, don't be angry..speak to me again.." He looked at Toshiya carefully. Toshiya smiled. "Silly Die." He smiled, then ruffled Die's hair. "I can't be angry with you..not..now." He whispered, then pulled the guitarrist's head towards himself to seal his lips with a kiss. Die finished the kiss after some time. "I..and..if you want me to prove.. I could..as well leave my hands off you for a while.." He gulped. Toshiya grinned. The he suddenly mounted on Die's lap and pushed him backwards. Die fell back on the bed. "But not now."

Kaoru sighed, as he pushed away from his desk. Shinya wrapped his arms around the leaders shoulders. "Don't be sad, Kaoru-kun.." he said. Kaoru sighed again. "I never thought he could be such a jerk. I thought I really meant more to him than..you know. But..it doesn't seem so." Shinya smiled sadly. "I honestly thought that, too. I hoped so. But you really haven't heard of him?" Kaoru stood up. "No! I told you! Nothing. Not one single Email! In four weeks! I'm so.." he sighed again. "I'm so silly." Shinya, who still stood in front of the desk, raised one finger. "Erm, Kaoru.." Kaoru didn't react. "I can't believe I've been that much in love, I.." - "Kaoru.." - "He used me, that wasn't fair.." - "Kaoru!!!!" Shinya shouted. Kaoru looked at Shinya amazed. "Yes?" Shinya sighed and pointed at the desktop. "There." A message was blinking. Kaoru studied it. "Hi sweetheart. It's me, Shun.. How are you?" Kaoru gasped and started tipping. "Where have you been?? I haven't heard one single word from you!!" he answered. Soon, the ICQ-window blinked again. "We can talk about that calmly. I hope so. But first - would you let me in?" - "What? Where are you?" Kaoru looked completely stunned. "In front of your apartement door." The answer came. Kaoru screamed and then ran towards the apartement door. As he pulled it open, Shun sat in front of it, his notebook on his knees. "Hey, honey." He grinned, then closed his notebook and got up. "Shu..Shu-chan!" Kaoru looked at him astonished. Shun kissed his lips softly. "Sorry - I'm late for dinner." He grinned.
 

Comments: Now, everyone got what he deserved. Satisfied? ^-^
 

love
 

~kana~