Sometimes he just pretends, well he tried it at least, that the older one is not there. At the beginning he did not talk to him that much. Time comes and goes and he felt something strong wanting him to be by the side of the older one. He didn't know where this strong something was coming from. Heechul always said it was his own fault. The other did even not know what the Cinderella himself wanted from him, or what the meaning behind of his talking was.
So he tired to forget everything.
While he was busy pretending the older one wasn't there, he lost the count of touches and closeness to the other. One day he found himself loving the way the older one touch him. Silent touches. Not noticeable at all. But he was wrong. Damn wrong. Someone did notice the changes. It was the older one himself. But he didn’t say anything. He let the things be the way they were. He was afraid. But he didn’t want to accept it. So he left the younger one in thoughts and feelings that he even didn’t know.
Heechul was the first one who was pissed off. He always did know the right thing. And yeah he always was right too. So even Heechul tried his best to make the younger Christ believe and accept his own feelings so that the other one would stop act like a 13 years old girl, but nothing, really no hint hit the one how Heechul had planned. So he gives up.
It wasn’t his business ,that was his excuse.
Things go one until the older one, called leader, brought home the news of the Chinese boy leaving his beloved 13, plus the beloved two of Super Junior M, and make them become 12. But things gone even worser when Kang In left for the army and Kibum in his Kibum-world. So they end up becoming 10 plus Henry and Mimi. And that was the point where the younger Christ aka Choi Siwon realized finally what the strong something was. He realized it a little too late but still he wanted to do his best. But sadly the best is not always good enough.
So Han Geng was away. Too far away, Siwon thought. And he hated how far it was. He hated the distant, even he know how nice it is to be back in to the own country. Still he hated it.
One day he heard accidently a really really really familiar voice in his ears. And then he understands why SHINees RING DING DONG is RING DING DONG. He just run to the room he heard the voice coming from and saw just a golden fram with his beloved face, smiling at him. He found a note under it, words of sorry and don’t worries I'll be back soon stuff. But Siwon did know better. And that was the sad thing which made him regret to ignore all the hints. Blame it on me, he thought and close the door.
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