Silent emotions
Prologue: silent emotions
Realization
The hardest thing, that could hit you
Anyway if human or shaman
to know, that all had been for nothing
And that you have to carry the guilt for your deeds on your own
Truth
To be damned till eternity
Despite reasonable and penalty you’ll never be able to live like in the past
to be hated in each new life
is a bad stroke of fate
Forgiveness
Something you do not expect, also not be allowed to expect
and so not be able to
Not, because it is refused
But for the reason, you’d never recognize it, as long as you don’t forgive yourself your deeds
Only how, when you’re quite alone in a world, in which it seems that the last one is against you
Hopes
Therefore went out a long time ago
Buried in deep darkness and mourning, new protection walls built
Just to protect the rest of your own existence
Which you self can’t bear anymore
To die
Such a simple solution… but unfortunately completely useless, because it seems never to take an end
The knowledge about the own deeds will last… it doesn’t matter how often you die
Just as the hate of the others
To see and to feel, that you’re standing alone in vain,
That nothing has changed, is hardly to beam and lets the shadows grow
Rescue
Help of somebody…who not hates you
The only thing you still wish…but unfortunately not hope for
finally to be not lonely any longer, to feel, that you’re not hated by everyone
Even it’s merely one soul…it would give you so much
The last and only wish…to be loved and protected
Tears
Because of that cried so many times, silent and never shown
Dozen of them ram themselves their way… without being noticed by anyone
Expect this one, who says them
Such simple words, which are meaning so lot
I forgive you
Stay by me
I love you
Three words
Hardly speech and emotions worth have a completely new importance
Let the wall by confusion crumble
Unstoppable, without being noticed
But what also isn’t wanted anymore…to large the wish, to be near to someone
Finally be loved and feel secure again…
