I will survive
So, das ist mal eine Art Experiment...um herauszufinden, ob es auch Leute bei animexx gibt, die englische Digimon-stories lesen^^ Ja, ihr habt richtig gehört, die Geschichte ist auf Englisch. Ich hab sie grad erst von meinem Beta zurückgekriegt, und wollt sie mal posten. Über Kommentare würde ich mich natürlich sehr freuen!!! *g*
Genre: Drama/Romance
Warnung: Kommt ein bisschen Daikari vor, also nichts für Takari-Liebhaber^^
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Disclaimer: The song 'I will survive' and its lyrics belong
to Gloria
Gaynor. Digimon and its characters belong to Toei Animations. I own
nothing, just the way these words are put together.
I will survive, and I'll be happy
*Songfic by Kaeera*
//At first I was afraid I was petrified
Kept thinkin' I could never live without you by my side; //
The woman was sitting in the living room of her small flat, a small
set of photos on her lap. A distant look was on her face while she
looked at the pictures of she and her friends laughing and grimacing.
There was a photo with a single person on it, smiling self
consciously at the viewer, and she quickly put it aside. No, she
didn't want to see *him* right now.
//But then I spent so many nights
Thinkin' how you did me wrong//
Her long brown hair was falling smoothly down her neck, and she
brushed it aside. During the years she had decided to let it grow,
because it just suited her better, giving the young woman an air of
elegance and letting the childish look vanish. Her warm, brown eyes
fulfilled the picture of a beautiful grown-up; eyes which were now
sparkling with more confidence than they had before.
She stood up, taking the photo in her hands and throwing it into a
dustbin. A sad smile appeared on her lips while she watched the paper
sailing toward the ground, but she didn't pick it up again. It
was over. No crying anymore, she had promised herself.
The woman looked to the clock, realising that she was late, and
hurried out of the room. She quickly tied up her hair in a ponytail,
and then left the flat. Her friends were waiting for her, and she
didn't want to be late. Especially after she had abandoned these
friends for so long, hiding in her room and sinking deeper and deeper
into depression.
The door closed behind her with a soft click.
//And I grew strong
And I learned how to get along//
"You know, we really should watch this movie! They say it's
great!"
The lavender-haired woman squealed, nipping excitedly at her coffee.
She just nodded and laughed slightly. "Miyako, you want to watch
every movie with cute guys as the main actors!"
Her friend blushed. "Ah Hikari...but the story is good as well, a
great plot and fantastic special effects! You can go with me and Ken,
it'll be fun!"
"Uhm...no, thanks.", she hesitated. "I don't want to
interfere, it would be me as the third wheel, ya know...you two would be better off going alone."
"Well, you can always ask Davis," Miyako grinned, which
caused Hikari to blush.
"I don't think I'm quite ready for that...", she
whispered regretfully.
"Come on, girl, it's been two years now! You really should
come over it, I mean...Davis is a great guy and he likes you. He won't do
anything you don't want, I'm sure of that. I think he has
grown up the most of us. He even opened his own business!"
"Yeah...but I don't want to use him..."
"You are not using him, you're going on a date. You will like
it, and he will like it. I'm sure!" Miyako pointed at the
brown-haired woman. "I'll call him and invite him over, and then we will
pick you up and go to the cinema together! Around eight o'clock, okay?"
Hikari stared on the table and then into the laughing eyes of her
friend. "Okay," she then agreed.
"It's settled then!" Miyako jumped up. "I gotta go,
my lunch break is over - and I don't have holidays like you. Can you pay for
me?" She threw money on the table, waved good-bye and then hurried out of the
café. Hikari just snickered and gathered the money, calling for
the waitress. She had to admit that going out with the other three was
something she was looking forward to...and Miyako was right, it was
time that she started a new life. On her own.
//And I grew strong
And I learned how to get along//
The sun was shining, and she enjoyed the walk to her home. Yeah, like
Miyako said, she was lucky to have holidays - one of the positive
points of being a teacher.
Hikari walked up the staircase to her flat and was surprised to find
the door open. Suspiciously she looked inside and gasped when she saw
a familiar figure sitting on the couch in her living room.
//And so you're back from outer space
I just walked in to find you here with that sad look upon your face//
"What are you doing here?", she asked after a minute of
stunned silence.
"I wanted to see you.", he said with that beautiful smile of
his. The smile she had fallen in love with. The one that had made her cry for
so many nights.
"After two years?" Her voice was icy and she stepped into the
living room, letting the hang door open. "After disappearing for two
years you just walk in and say that you want to see me??"
//I should have changed that stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second you'd be back to bother me//
"Hey, you know that I love you!" He stood up and wanted to
embrace her, but Hikari backed away, a furious look in her eyes.
"You love me?" she repeated. "How come that you left me
without even bothering to say goodbye when you *love* me? How could you hurt me
like that when you *loved* me? Huh? Do you know what I've gone
through? Do you know how lonely I've felt? How many nights I
bawled my eyes out and just wished that you were here, by my side???"
"I know that I've made a mistake...", he said, an honest
look in his eyes. "But I've learned, and now I want to stay with you.
Forever."
The words stung into her heart, but she refused to listen to them. It
was over. He was too late.
"Forget it." Hikari commanded. "Forget it, Martin. We
aren't together anymore. It's over, and it's your fault, because you
destroyed everything!"
//Go on now, go walk out the door
Just turn around now
('cause) you're not welcome anymore//
"But Kari-chan..."
"No buts. I have learned to deal with it, and I have started a
new life now. I don't need you!"
"Didn't you like the time we were together? What's wrong
with you?"
"Nothing is wrong with me, there's something wrong with you!
I don't want to see you anymore, so just leave! Go out of this door and
disappear out of my life, like you did two years ago. It wasn't
so hard for you back then, so why are you struggling now?"
//Weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye
Did you thin I crumble
Did you think I'd lay down and die?
Oh no, not I. I will survive//
Suddenly his eyes changed. He glared at her. "No, I won't go.
I need a place to live."
"Oh, that's the reason?", Hikari spat out in disgust.
"You just need a place to live? Honestly, I have no idea why I have ever fell for you, you...bastard! You certainly can't stay here, there are nice
places called hotels, go there and rent a room. I don't want to
have you in my flat!" She pointed to the door and growled.
"Leave!"
An angry look crossed his face. "What has happened to you?"
"I've grown up. I've realised that I don't need to
depend on you. That I have my own life. That I am capable of living on my own. And it was you who taught me that - it was a painful lesson, but I
learned. I can survive without you. I have my friends. And they are
better friends than you've ever been!"
//For as long as I know how to love I know I'll stay alive;
I've got all my life to live,//
He grabbed her wrist and snarled. "Don't you dare talk to me
like that."
"I can talk however I want!" Kari tried to get free, but
failed against the brutal strength of the man. She shivered with disgust.
Was this the same person she had fallen in love with? What had
happened? How could she have been that wrong about him??
//I've got all my love to give and I'll survive,
I will survive - Hey hey!//
He slammed her against the wall and she winced in pain. His eyes were
full of rage, resembling more the eyes of a wild animal than the eyes
of a human. Now she could smell his breath, could smell the burning
scent of alcohol. He was drunk!
"Let me go!" she ordered, trying to stay calm. She
couldn't show any
weaknesses, he would take advantage of that.
"No!", Martin laughed harshly. "You're mine. I won't let you go!" And
he started kissing her face, although she screamed in disgust and
struggled to get free.
Hikari didn't want this! It had taken her so long to come to grip
with her loneliness, and now, when she had finally managed her life,
*he* was coming back and destroying everything!
//It took all the strength I had not to fall apart
Kept trying' hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart,//
But no matter how hard she struggled, she didn't have a chance
against the tall, strong man. He grabbed her, dugging his fingers
deep into her skin, leaving angry red marks. Then he started to tug
her pullover off. Kari's eyes widened when she realised what he
was going to do, and she let out a panicked yelp. "Stop it..."
But he covered her mouth and all she could get out was a faint mumble.
Tears started rolling down her cheeks when she realised that she
couldn't do anything to prevent it. He hurt her, again, and she
was helpless, so helpless...
//And I spent oh so many nights
Just feeling sorry for myself. I used to cry//
Suddenly he was dragged away from her and thrown forcefully against
the wall. Kari gasped and slumped to the ground.
"Are you okay?" came the worried voice.
She blinked a few times, until she finally realized *who* had thrown
her ex-boyfriend against the wall. In front of her was standing
Daisuke Motomiya, best soccer player in the city and former leader of
the Digidestined. His big brown eyes had a concerned expression in
them and he held out his hand in order to help her up.
Kari took his hand and stood up. "I'm okay," she managed
a shaky smile. "You came just in time."
Davis looked at Martin, who was trying to get up with a dazed
expression in his face. "Who is this? What did he want? Did he
hurt you?"
Kari sighed. "This...is my Ex." Then her face hardened.
"And I never want to see him again, that's why he got a bit angry when I told
him. If you hadn't come..." her voice trailed off and she looked
away.
She felt a supporting hand on her shoulder. "Then we'd better
throw him out ." Davis suggested.
"Yeah."
//But now I hold my head up high
And you see me somebody new
I'm not that chained up little person still in love with you,//
Davis grabbed the other man by the collar and shoved him out of the
door. Martin landed painfully on his back and sat there, staring at
the duo with a furious look in his eyes.
"You will never lay a hand at Kari again, understood?" Davis
commanded harshly. "Or I will personally come and beat you to a
whimpering pile if bones and meat!"
He just gaped at Davis, realising that he had no chance against the
athletic soccer player.
"It's over," Kari said softly and looked him into his
eyes, these eyes, which held absolutely nothing for her anymore. "I never
want to see you again. I don't need you. I have my life, and you have
yours. So go and live your life alone. Just never come back. Never. I regret
every minute I have spent to cry about you - because you
weren't worth it. Now I have learned otherwise."
//And so you feel like droppin' in
And just expect me to be free,
Now I'm savin' all my lovin' for someone who's lovin' me//
He glared one last time and then stood up and left. Kari looked after
him and then sighed a breath of relieve she didn't even know she
had been holding.
"Thanks..." she mumbled to her friend.
"You're welcome," Davis smiled. "I actually just
wanted to come over because I wanted to make personally sure that you *really* are okay with the cinema trip...and then I noticed that the door was open, so
I stepped in and...well, nearly got a heart attack when I saw you
with this guy."
"It was a bit difficult to make him believe that I am really over
him...and he was drunk." The woman shuddered at the remembrance
of the stinking breath. "I'm just glad that it's over..."
//But now I hold my head up high
And you see me somebody new
I'm not that chained up little person still in love with you//
"If he had gone any further...I think I would have killed
him," Davis balled his fists, then smiled. "Sorry. It was a big shock for
me..."
"I know," Kari laughed thankfully. "For me, too."
Davis took out his cellphone and started dialling a number. "Who
are you calling?" Kari wanted to know.
"Miyako and Ken, telling them that we won't go to the cinema
tonight."
"What makes you think that I don't want to go there?" She
put her hand around his, forcing him to put the cellphone away.
"Uhm...," he stuttered. "Well, I didn't assume that
you want to go out after something like that, especially when I remember how much it has effected you the last time, so I...well..." He blushed and
Kari had to giggle.
"Davis, Martin belongs to the past. I'm living in the present
now, and I have realised that I can live - and be happy - without him.
I have my friends, I have my family, and I have you. And I would
really, really love to go to the cinema with you!"
//And so you feel like droppin' in
And just expect me to be free,
Now I'm savin' all my lovin' for someone who's lovin' me//
He just stared at her and then a small, happy smile crept on his
lips. "I'm looking forward to it."
Kari laughed. "Me, too!"
//go on no go walk out the door just turn around now cause you're
not welcome anymore, weren't you the one that tried to break me
with
goodbye did you think I'd crumble did you think I'd lay down
and die
oh not I will survive for as long as I know how to love I know I
stay alive I've got all my live to live and I've got all my
love to
give and I survive I will survive
I will survive//
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