Fanart: If you jump
| Zetsubo [Zeichner-Galerie] | Upload: 18.10.2008 11:26 |
| [STRG+C | STRG+V] Not an ADAUGEO-fanart at least. Yet a weird piccie. I'm a bit into depressive mood lately. Real life is starting to get to me I guess. Having to do lots of comforting, consoling, listening, assuring... But who's there to console the consoler? Who will listen to how much it all gets to me what's going on? *sigh* But it's always been like that. I'm there to help people even though I'm bad at it. I'm there to listen to people. I'm there to console, giving advices, doing all the assuring. But no one ever seems to notice when I'm the one feeling like shit. Or they just don't care... Just like I'm good at making strangers into friends so they can ignore me afterwards u___u Happens to me all the time. One friend of mine meets the other, they become even better friends and my existence becomes forgotten. Maybe I'm just cursed or something... On the other hand I hate being comforted. The thought of someone being bothered by my discomfort makes me feel like a burden. And that's something I just cannot stand. That's why I rather hide behind my mask of neverending carelessnessn enduring that horrible lonely feeling... And getting into depressive moments every now and then. In the end it's my cat and the cockatiels that get me back. I never attempted suicide even though I felt like it because I knew: My pets need me. They don't deserve being left alone just because I'm selfish. They're just as loyal as I am, never telling any lies, never talking back at you once you turn around. They trust me. And I can trust them. You can trust your pets more than you can trust any human. I've found a song that I can pretty much associate with. It remembers me so much of different parts of my own life, the miserable feelings, the awfull time of growing up as the ultimate loser... And it inspired me to this image: http://de.youtube.com/watch?v=-GlSniFOvP0 Jumping. That was what I would've done if it weren't for my pets. We lived high enough for it to have been working out. My first thought upon hearing this song was rather to ridicule it by having Zim jump into a puddle... But sicne I really felt like a royal mess yesterday it turned into this. And even if it's not ADAUGEO-related it may very well fit in there, according to the mentally unstable state my character's still in... Let me wallow in the fact, that the water really looks like water for a moment. It was an accident, so it'll probably never happen again. At least I stayed true to my uselessnes if it comes to background by that silly excuse for a skyline. Don't bother about that. I still consider Irken blood to be green... but for the sake of contrast... It's red. Hm. I'm feeling a little better today. Someone made me talk to him when I was about to go to sleep and... Yes. My cat and her way of snuggling everything into okayness while purring ever so softly. Zim won't jump. To make that clear... Because... Like I have my cat and cockatiels Zim still has GIR. So... Let's smile a little, will we? ^^ Have a nice day ~Zelu |
Themen: Invader Zim, Jhonen Vasquez Stile: Computer Grafik, Computer koloriert Charaktere: Zim, Gir |
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Kommentare (1)
Von: abgemeldet
13.06.2009 02:10
D'awww... I wanna hug him! He looks so sad!
And surely, he needs first aid... *me help*^^
And surely, he needs first aid... *me help*^^
