Would you've loved me, if you knew we had to suffer in the end?
These days, when you lay in my arms, I felt our fate
Just for this I smile
Now, years later, my memories, my consciousness, it fates
My eyes get blurry as I remember you
And I wish I knew
I just want to be with you.. just once more
'cause now and than I realize my mind is playing tricks on me
as I find myself talking to you
I will never understand how we could end up this way
All you gave me.. all this trust..
It's all gone.. burned to ashes
And the pain is getting deeper everytime I see your fucking smile
as you give her all that's mine
"How could you..? why?" my voice it trembels.. but I know I'm right.. I'm fine
And here I am again, betraying myself with thoughts of you
Your voice, your face, your loving care
it just feels so real..
But I know it's not. yet I never will get over it.
'cause you won't come back.. even if you saw my crying, begging.. yes even if you saw my dying
You will not come back
So I take a last deep breath to feel all this pain again
and with all the strengh that's left inside of me
I cut my wrists
The blood, it flows, I gain for it
My thoughts are running circles but I feel them passing by
My pulse, it rushes
and I smile as I feel my heart cry
it fights.. at least it tries
But this time I won't let it take over me
This one last time i will win
My decision is made
It will end tonight..
It all will end in this beautiful night
A scream filled with grief
It torns the night apart as your tears mix within the blood
And from up above I smile hearing your tortured voice reading my last lies
"it's not your fault, it is mine.
please.. be happy with her.
that's all I wish for"
yeah .. as if
