Sometimes Christmas is even useful... von abgemeldet ================================================================================ Kapitel 1: ----------- Hallöchen! Dies ist eine FF zu The Rasmus. Es ist eine Slash FF! Noch dazu auf englisch. Die Jungs gehören nicht mir, sondern sich selbst. Und soweit ich weiß, sind sie nicht schwul!!Das hier ist nur eine kleine kranke Fantasie in meinem Hirn. Wenn ihr Fragen dazu habt, schreibt ein Kommi oder ne Mail an: ninagiku@web.de Have fun!! P:S::Wenn ihr Fehler findet, dürft ihr sie behalten!! Sometimes Christmas is even useful "Merry Christmas!! Bye!" By speaking these words my sister Hanna is leaving our flat. Actually we wanted to celebrate Christmas together this year. Actually. This morning our parents phoned her and acquainted that one of her early friends is there attending his parents at the house next door. Thereupon she packed her bags and left. And what about me? She promised me, she swore to stay with me this year after having left me at short notice last year, because of her boyfriend. I'm alone this year for the third time now, although she promised me to stay. Every year she said we would celebrate together and every year I was still alone. Weather because of friends, family or fiancé, it doesn't matter.... Well, then I will call the others. Eero first. "Heinonen?" I hear his voice from the other part of the telephone circuit. "Hey, it's me, Lauri. I just wanted to ask, if you want to come to me this evening with you family. For celebrating Christmas." "I'm sorry, Lauri, but we're at my parents house. Sorry!" he says excusatory. "It's okay. You told me but I forgot. Sorry! Well then, have a nice Christmas evening. Greet your family. Nähdään!" I'm sounding disappointed. "Have a nice one, too! Don't hang the head like that! Nähdään!" What a funny guy! You're not the one who's alone. Okay, let's try at Paulis. As far as I know, he cancelled the attendance at his parents because he wanted to do something with his girlfriend. He can do this here, too. "Yeah?" "Hello Pauli! Would you like to come to me and celebrate with me this evening? You can bring Lydia (~I just gave her that name, because I don't know her real name~), sure!" I'm nearly pleading to him. "Well we would like to come, but we aren't at Helsinki at all. We're in Oulu at the house of Lydias parents to celebrate with them. That's why I cancelled the attendance at my parents house." he sighs. "I see. So then, have fun tonight and Merry Christmas!" "Thanks, you too. Tell some greetings to Hanna." he says encouraging. "Hanna's not here. She left just some minutes ago. She's going to our parents, because of an old schoolfriend." Now its my turn to sigh. "So you're alone again? That's bad. Sorry, but we can't come." "It's okay. I'll survive it. Bye!" I bid farewell. "Bye!" Then there is just "biep biep biep" Well, another negative report. Then you're the only one who's left. But should I really call you? I'll just try. "biep...biep...biep..." No one answers. Well, bad luck! Some hours later, evening dawns. I spent them with burning arround on the sofa and doing nothing apart from listening to music. Real music, not Hannas Christmas"music". I decide to go to the chinese restaurant round the corner to get something to eat. Actually I wanted to cook for Hanna and myself but just for myself it's not worthwhile. I leave the flat and walk through the snow covered streets. Everywhere you can see blinking and sparkling Christmas decoration of other houses. Over the last years I noticed that I am just fed up with Christmas. Is anyone wondering about this? Probably everyone would feel the same if he's alone every year. I arrive at the chinese restaurant and order my spring rolls. Some minutes later I leave with a small package in my hands. Another minute later I'm home again. Just for getting a little Christmas feeling I turn on some Christmas songs however and sit down in front of ,this evening, my Christmastree, I decorated with balls and fairy lights. While sitting there and eating my dinner, my thoughts involuntary turn to you. What are you doing in this moment? Are you alone, too? I'm thinking too much of you. And first of all for the wrong reasons. Which ones? You don't know! Thank goodness! It would be terrible if you would know them. For me, for you, for our band, for everything and everybody! Yes, I love you! Ridiculous, isn't it? Downright morbid! My sprig rolls are eaten, I let myself topple back and lie outstreched on the floor. I try to relax, not to think of you. I don't succeed. For a long time I'm not succeeding in it. Too long. Your face is downright chaseing me. I'm fed up with Christmas now. I get up, grab my warm black coat and I'm out of the house. The light is still on everywhere, but I don't care about. I just want to get away from Christmas. After half an hour highspeed walking I get to the border of a small forest. I slow down my speed. The forest is not large. When there is light you can see right through it. I follow the path, want to get to the lake behind. I was there recently, it's frozen. Ilove walking over the frozen lake. It is a kind of calming me down. In addition I always get some new ideas for my songs. The ice is thick up to half a metre, it's easy to walk on it. Staight over the lake and back around. It takes nearly an hour and then back home in a cosy speed. While walking, my thoughts turn to you again. Sure! Where else? There's just no other way for me. I just can't get you out of my head. Your bright eyes, your beautiful lips, your well built body. Just you! It's quiet dark now, but I don't care, I know the way. I would find it, even while I'm sleeping. About two hours later I'm standing at the beginning of the road I live in. I identify the house from this point, as well as the red sports car, standing in the gateway. Your car! What are you doing here? You want to come to me? Sure, there is no one else than me! I'm nearly running up the gateway. You're sitting on the stairs in front of the door. You're cold, you're trumbling and I can hear your chattering of teeth. "Aki!" I gasp. "What are you doing here? I mean, why are you here? I..." "Get low, get low, Lintu! First of all Merry Christmas!" By speaking these words you get up, come to me and give me a big hug, press me close to you. I feel your warm breath, tickeling my ear, your heart, beating against your chest. I pose my arms around your hip carefully, hold you tight. "Thank you, Aki! A Merry Christmas for you also!" You're still holding me tight and then I don't feel your breath anymore, I feel your tongue, licking gently around my earlap. "Aki?! What..." I start but you cut me off immediately. "Do you really think, I have not noticed? You sometimes were so eye-catching, that even Eero and Pauli started to think about!" you whisper. "And what is this all about now?" I ask a little tangled and disengage your hug. "This was my answer." Hardly said, you hug me again and you kiss me. Precious, filled with passion. I can't resist, I fall right into your arms, I answer your kiss. I feel you smiling into the kiss. Then you disengage, look me in the eye. "I think you understood. I love you, Lauri Ylönen!" I must have looked like I was very perplexed, because there's a new smirk in your face. "Honestly?...Really?" I ask fuddled. "Absolutely honest!" you whisper. You put your hand in my neck and pull me towards you again. There is another osculation. This one is ended by myself. "Let's go in! It's damn cold out here!" You agree and I unlock the door. Nice to be somewhere warm again. The light's on everywhere, still everything is as I left it. "Why is the light on when you're not at home?" you ask. "Well, I left a little harum-scarum [1]. I just wanted to get away and I quiet didn't care. But if you are bothered by...." I smile to you, get out of my coat and with one handle it's pretty dark in the flat. Only the thick black candle is burning near the sofa. I grab your hand and pull you towards the sofa. I let fall myself behind, pull you with me. You lie above me, smiling. You slant your head and stop just a breath away. I break through the last distance. Your tongue licks over my lips, begs for entrance. I let it in. My God! You're a good kisser! The moment seems to last eternally but it's over too soon. "I love you, Lauri!" you whisper. "I love you, too, Aki!" I whisper back. I give you a peck on your nose. "It's the best Christmas I ever had!" You smile and say: "For me ,too!" You sit up and get out of your cardigan you're wearing above your "Ride my 10 inch"-Shirt. "You don't want to tell me something with this Shirt, do you?" I leer. You stay with a wrecked smile... MERRY CHRISTMAS!! [1]: harum-scarum: Hals über Kopf; überstürzt Hosted by Animexx e.V. (http://www.animexx.de)