Bloody Rose von Tenraii (Loving until the end) ================================================================================ Kapitel 1: beginning of a nightmare ----------------------------------- Dark clouds runnung through the dark sky. Everything was still,just the noise of his breath,the strong and frighten heart beats make him sure that he is not dreaming. And he wanted to dream...dream....be far away,in a world he doesn't has to be afraid of. So he was there in his room with no lights on, just the bright moon shining at him,laying in his bed. Ryou stares in to the darkness thinking of his fate and family tragedy. His eyes fills up with tears running down his cheeks. The young boy grabbs his breast.// alone.....I'm alone by myself......I hate it...what do I want?-- I think I want someone around me. And later? Someone who hugs me...... what for? ...I need it what for? .....don't getting depressed? Am I depressed? ...maybe.....I'm scared What of? being alone until the end.// He turns around pressing his face into the pillow starting to cry. Noboby hearing it,noboby hugging him...helping him.....well that's not exactly true. *dumb little kid..you are going an my nerves* Ryou shrug and was looking around his room searching for the way the voice came from,starting to shake. /sorry...I'm ..just so lonely..aren't you lonely as well?You were a human being like me ...weren't you?/ Ryou looks at his millenium item, garbs it and puts it on his stomach.Then he leans back,satring at the wall again. *Sure I was! What do you think am I? A fucking Jinn of a lamp?.....would you finaly stopp making yourself depressed?!! ....you are sick! I wish I would have got another Hikari..you sucks!* Looking sad not moving. /sorry.....but I'm not as cold hearted as you are...I need other people..people who give me love,attention and support...I ahte to be lonely/ * You little crap. You were always lonely. You miss your mother and little sister.Accept it!!! They are dead! you will never see them again! Never! When will you get it? and you need support? Love?.HA! Don't make me laugh! Look around you...nobody care about you,nobody is there for you. Do you think that this would change? And were is your daddy??? Even he is traveling around leaving is own son alone in this big apartment in this big city. ....so who the hell care about you? You make me sick with you suffering! If you can't stand it...just die! drop dead to the floor! Noone will notice it until your corps begin to stink like hell. Die and go to your stupid sister insteadof writing senseless letters to her! Isn't it what you want?* Ryou throws the millenium ring away and starts crying and shouting at it. " Stopp it! I'm not alone..I'm not...my friends will care about me..they will I'm sure!...Daddy has to work it's not his fault...what do YOU know!!!?? How can you be so cruel!? Just leave me alone! This is my life! My body! Go! JUST GO AWAY!" HIs body is shaking and tears make the pillow wet. *soo? your friends heh? How childish! phone them! phone just one of them! They just feel sorry for you that's all do you really think they like you?* "Just shut up!" mumbling. // Is it true? do they just feel sorry ?....no...that's not true// The ghost of the millenium ring appears near the bed,'looking down to Ryou. The young boy feels the cold aura of him and stopps crying. * We will see....you are just a shame...a stupid little frighten guys who is dependent of others....weak little freak...go on like this and your life will become worthless. You will be alone all your life long...and end as an old man sitting in his room asking silly questions being depressed and almost insane. Then you'll go to bed not waking up anymore without anyone holding your frezzy hands.* "STOPP IT!!" screaming in menatl pain. He looks up to the ghost with tears in his eyes, looking puzzeled. "I'm not going to be like this..." *you are....your suffer...your pain...I would not be surprised seeing you soon taking drugs to feel better.* *-smirks-* *you make me sick!* *- the ghost disappears back in to the ring, pissed of his little hikari-* Ryou lays on his back and can't sleep until the next morning. When his watch starts to ring he looks up and goes in to the bathroom preparing for school. Ryou feels so sick and cold, his eyes red because of crying and no sleep. He goes to the kitchen eating some bread without any lust,put on his millenium item and taking his school bag. He leaves the house trying not to fall asleep during the to school. He acn't forget about what his Yami told him last night. he takes his seat and prepares for the first lesson. Yugi and his friends notice that something is wrong with Ryou and walk over to him. Yugi looks worried." Hey are you alright Ryou? You look really bad!" Ryou wasn't even listening and just nodding his head. "Ryou?hey Ryou! What's wrong with you?" Yugi tries to see in to his eyes. "No...no everything is fine...I'm fine" "Are you really? You look awful"Anzu,asks. "sure...I didn't sleep well....I had some depressions about...family stuff" Yugi looks sad to him touching his shoulder. "I feel sorry for you." Anzu nods standing helpless near Yugi."Me too....pour you." Ryou's eyes starts to shine.He was near to tears again and gets up. Jounouchi looks surprised at him. " hey dude what's the matter?" " leave alone....just leave me! Don't feel sorry for me!" He runs out of the classroom to the washingrooms and smashes the door behind him. //It's exactly how he said.....they just feel sorry...why...why life has to be so unfair// *Crying again little brat?..you woke me up stupid kid!* /piss off/ Ryou's fists were shaking because of anger and despair. He looks in to the mirror in frint of him seeing is red cheeks flooded by tears again. Anger comes up in him. Anger about his friends,his parents ,his sister,his item and himself. He smashes his fist into the mirror which breaks into peaces. Ryou tembles even more when he sees the blood on his hand with glass splinters in it. Then he stands still in the room looking the blood dropping on the floor. *What the hell are you staring at? Do you have never seen blood before?* Ryou is not answering his qustion and takes one splinter. At the same time the teacher came in to the classroom making the presence. When she realizes that Ryou is missing she askes the other students. Yugi stands up." He is in a bad condition...I think he went to the washingroom to calm down. Do you want me to look for him?" The teacher nods and continues making the presence. Yugi goes to the washing rooms. /Yami I have the feeling that something is wrong with Ryou. Do you think that the ghost of his millenium ring has something to do with it?/ **Could well be..I hope he is fine. Hurry up Aibou!** Ryou's ring sudenly starts to shine. *what the hella re you going to do you crap!?* But the Hikari doesn't answer him and just stares at the broken piece of glas. //...I can't...any ..longer......to much pain.....to much hate...to much of all this shit// * Stopp it! I won't let you! I forbid you! ....you know exactly I need a body* // ...right..that's all what I'm to you....just ...a body// Ryou takes the ring of and throws it against the wall, smashes the glas piece in his viens and blood splashes out of them. A few seconds later he drops down to the ground. Kapitel 2: in hospital ---------------------- Yugi finaly arrives at the bathroom and opens the door with a weird feeling inside,as if he knew what happen. "Ryou? Are you....Oh my gosh!" He stares at Ryou's body laying in his own blood....pale...not moving...just being there. ** Yugi you ahve to call a doctor..quick!** Yugi just stares at Ryou and can't believe it. ** Yugi?..Are you listening? Yugi?! YUGIII?!** /why....is he? is...he..?/ He runs over to the body of the yound boy searching for some pulse. /he is alive..../ Yugi takes of Ryou's shirt pulling it on the sloshing wound, with the other hand he searches for his mobile phone calling the police and the doctor. The teacher is wondering what happened to Yugi and Ryou when she sees the ambulance arriving. The students look curious out of the window,watching the doctors running into the school to the bathroom where Yugi is waiting. The teacher opens the door and sees Ryou on a stretcher looking like a corpse. Anzu and some other students rush by and the girls stares at their class mate almost screaming. Little Yugi was following the men with the ring in his hands looking furious at it. Jounouchi,Honda and Anzu run after Yugi. "Yugi!! What the hell has happened!??" Jounouchi asks. "...Don't know..I was to late..definetly to late...." stares down to Ryou's millenium item. "I'm sure..he's got something to do with it.....how could he....." Yugi almost starts to cry and covers his eyes. The whole group went into the abulance car going to hospital. Anzu can't watch Ryou like this and has also tears in her soft blue eyes. " How is he?" she asks anxious. "Not so good he need blood...he lost to much blood" The man was searching for Ryou's blood type results. " He's 0+ ...does anyone of you have this blood type??...hurry up or he'll die before we arrive in hospital" He looks at the kids. Then Jounouchi raises his hand. "Me....I've 0+" He looks worried at Ryou and pulls up his sleeve. " ok boy lay down next to him.....do feel alright? What's your name?" asks the doc,preparing a needle. "Jounouchi Katsuya sir....I'm fine..hurry up" Jounouchi breaths peacful and watches his blood flowing into Ryous weak body. // Come on...don't die ok?// In hospital Jounouchi and Ryou are put in a little room which is filled with two nurses,a doctor and Ryou's friends. When Ryou's condition finaly become solid the doc leaves the room with the nurses. Yugi goes to Jounouchi"Are you fine?....That was very kind....you saved him" Junouchi grins"Hey he's our friend right? I suppose he would have done the same for us...but I'm curious why he tried to kill himself" After a few minutes Ryou opens his eyes,looking weak around him. "I'm...alive...?" with a weak voice watching his mates. "Ryou! For God's sake!!! you woke up!" Anzu almost starts to cry. "Why Ryou...why did you...tried to..?"Yugi asks with a tumbling voice. "Not of importance....." shuts his eyes. "Oh it is! IT IS!! You know we are friends! Why didn't you come to us telling us your problems!? Why you wanted to kill yourself ..like this!? TELL ME! RYOU!" Yugi cries and leans over him. "...I...just.....I just... wanted" Ryou couldn't bring out more words. "Was it..his fault?" Yugi shows him the millenium ring which twinkles in front of Ryou's eyes who startet suddenly to cry too. (yugi) //Damn ...how dare you to hurt Ryou like this!? What did he do to? Wasn't he obidient enough??// **Aibou....please calm down....we should take the ring with us..trying to protect Ryou of him.** //You are right// Yugi wants to turn away with the ring."We should go now..you are weak ...you need a rest" *-Bakura's ghost stands near to Ryou's bed looking at him asking himself why this all happened-* Ryou opens his eyes and looks at Yugi."w..wait! Wait a second!" Yugi turns around again." hm?" "Give me the ring,yugi...please" he mumbles. The eyes of his friends look shocked. "What!? What for!? So that he can hurt you even more!?" The body of the hikari is shaking, carves his hands into the blanket. "please....I need to ...talk to..him" "but.." **Aibou....I think that's fine...they should talk** //sure?...I'm worried about him// ** He is in hospital...under control..don't worry Yugi** Yugi walks back to Ryou giving him the item. "YUGI!" Their friends are even more surprised now. "It's fine...." yugi looks at Ryou's bed,then in his eyes." it's ok...we'll come to vist you tomorrow." Ryou tries to smile. "Thanks...all of you..thank you." Yugi and his friends leave with weird feelings. Bakura goes over to his hikari and looks at him without any emotion in his face. *//so...you wanna talk.....what about?..stupid little kid//* Ryou looks to the ghost near him,then looks back to the ground. // ...why do you hate me that much?....I'm a human being ...you was one to....why you are so cruel? ...please tell me everything about you! I want to know more about you and your past// *//...Why..why why....stopp asking! it's just like it is! Accept it! ok? You don't need to know anything about me!//* Ryou's hands starts to shake again.// please... we don't have to agrue all the time....please explain everything to me. We can talk about everything.// Bakura leans over him and stares in his dark brown eyes. *//Listen! There is nothing to talk about!...JUst leave me alone! That's not your problem!//* //How cruel....must have been your past that you are so scared to tell anyone about it?...it is my also my problem! You are using MY body! I have the right to know what the heck are you doing with me!// Bakura's eyes are opened wide. *// Do you feel sorry for me?....You think I can't handle with my past?....HOW DARE YOU!//* Ryou looks scared at him and doesn't move. // no...no it's not like that!...well.. no... you're right that's what I think. That you are hurt very bad! Someone hurt you and you are longing for revenge!!// Bakura walks over to the window and looks outside to the rainy streets. Sighs and looks over his shoulder to his hikari. *// Finished?//* The young boy looks puzzled at him and closes his eyes. //yes..think so....you are not going to tell me anything...not now...but maybe anytime. I'll 'listen if you want to tell me anything.. when you are ready to tell me anything about your past.You will see...it feels so good to talk with someone about problems// *//Stupid little bastard....it's meaningless what had happened to me.//* Bakura disappears again in the item and silence fills the room. Ryou looks to the place where Bakura was standing before with his tired, sad eyes. do you hate me?......please.....do you hate me? Silence. //Please...TELL ME! DO YOU HATE ME?!....why do you hate me so much......do you like to see me suffering?// *//Shut up!....don't play on my nerves!....you are just there....something I need...I don't care about your soul//* //You are so cold hearted....were you ever in love with someone? did you ever feel pleasure?..I can't believe that you are so dark!// *// Idiot! I'm the darkness! I'm your Yami!//* Ryou curls in the bed. //...poor you....// *//What!?//*Sounds very surprised and looks to the second room in Ryou's heart where his hikari is. //I feel sorry for you......you are so lonely....full of hatetred...you are the one who suffers...not me...I pity you......I wish I could take some pain of your soul...just to see you...just for a moment really happy// Silence. Bakura stares at the other door,then starts to giggle. Then starts to laugh out loud. *// Do you really believe this shit you are talking about?!...YOU pity ME!?....stupid guy//* //You hide you past ..you don't want to talk about it..so ...what are you scared of? when you are not suffering..tell me about it!// Bakura's starts to fish vor arguments. *//....shut up//* //So I'm right...// *//No! You aren't!//* He gets furious and kicks against the other door. Silence again. *// you aren't...you aren'T DID YOU LISTEN!?//* ....Ryou opens his eyes and caress the ring. we will talk later..I'm tired Yami Bakura returns to his room and smashes the door behind him.He walks around furious,after a while he sits down and starts to think about Ryou and his life. Ryou falls asleep after a few moments with a sad view on his face. Two days later Ryou is allowed to leave the hospital and go home. His Yami didn't talk to him since their last conversation. Even the sun shines and a light wind touches Ryous face he can't be happy.....no he feels lonely again...especially now when his yami stopps talking to him. //..please....say something!....are you still there?...are you mad at me? I ..I just wanted to help you// walks along the streets and comes to the toy shop of yugi's grandfather. // I don't need help...shut up and stopp playing on my nervs.// He has finaly answered and when they pass the shop he suddenly takes over the control of the body. /hmm...this could be my chance/....Bakura smirks and walks into the shop, tries to be as gentle as possible. Ryou sits in his heart chamber and starts yelling at his yami:// don't even think of it! leave yugi alone! don't come near to him! if you hurt him I ..I will....// He tries to get back the control. // what will you do? hrhrhr there is nothing you can do! I'm just an evil ghost...living in an ancient item...you know it. don't come in to my way// Bakura walks to the grandfather and asks politly if yugi is home and that he wants to make some homework for school with him. The old man starts to smle and tells him that yugi isn't home yet but that Bakura is able to wait in yugis room for him. The yami nods and walks up the stairs into yugi's room. // how childish.....this room is full of toys and warm colours...disgusting// he looks around but just finds even more toys and decides to sit down and wait for him. //yami..listen...I 'll do everything you want but leave my friends alone!// lays down on the bed and stares through the window. // you know that I want the items... there is nothing else you can do ...you can choose between getting the irems for me or let me get them by my own.// Ryou goes down on his knees..//don't use my body for it.....maybe we can create a body for your own ..just for you?// //what are you mumbling about foolish freak...that's impossible...you want me to have my own body?? wouldn't that cause even more problems?// He closes his eyes and waits...listens to his Hikari. //is it really impossible?....isn't there something like a magic trick? ....a black magical ritual?....// His soul appears near to bakura's and watches him. //hmm... well.. you are not that dumb I thought...but I don't know how to do it...I need more informations!// Looks at his hikari a bit surprised. The charming boy smiles happily and nods. // let me do it for you! I will get the informations you need! I promise....but leave my friends until you have your body....deal?// / ...I think with an own body he will be easier to get...easier to control....I have the responsibility for him...I have to be careful/ //hmm..// Bakura thinks through it and a little silence comes betwee them. //deal...// Then he imidetially goes back to the ring and gives the control back to Ryou, whos sighs and waits for Yugi because he missed school and needs some informations what had happened. Yugi walks into his room and was surprised to see RYou sitting on his bed. " hey Ryou! you're out of hospital? Are you fine?" smiles at him und goes over to him. Ryou smiles at Yugi." yes I think I'm fine again. May you tell me about the stuff that happened in school? did I missed something very important?" /just wait until I have my school stuff then we will go to the libary, ok?/ */hurry up,kid/* Yugi takes out some foto copies for Ryou. "here youa re ^^ well you didn't miss anything important. " then he takes a look on Ryous arms which were full of scarves. His sight became very sad. " they won't heal anymore ...right?" he whispers to him. The white harired boy just nods. " well.. I have to go now .. thanks for the fotocopies yugi. See you tomorrow in school" he gets up and looks down to the ground. / they will never heal again .../ */ your own fault! tses!...you're .. so stopp crying!/* / I'm not crying.../ Yugi does not stopp him. // poor Ryou.. I hope he talked to his Yami// When Ryou later arrvied at the libary he takes everythng about dark magic, voodoo and other kinds of magic. He stays there for some ours and takes notes, searches for something like soul transplantation,reincarnation. /it must be possible!/ */ hehe you just want to get rid of me right?! you can't stand it anymore/* /maybe but that's not all... hey what about that!/ he pointed on some phrases. " reviving bodies and soul extracting(exorcism)" */ sounds dangerous ... your body could get crushed...is it worth to do that?/* ryou does not answer and takes some books with him to his flat. / we just have to read through all of this .. maybe you should do that yami .. you know more about dark magic and that stuff than me./ Hosted by Animexx e.V. (http://www.animexx.de)