How life works   von GizziJu
                           (Ereri/Riren - Modern AU)
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                             Kapitel 9: Chapter 9
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Black. Black? Darkness. Darkness? Why is it so dark? What had happened? I don't
like this! I hate darkness so why is everything bl-' my thoughts were
interrupted when I hit my head on something hard.
 
Then I noticed that the darkness came from my closed eyes. I slowly opened them
and saw that I was lying in the hallway.
 
'Must have fallen asleep when Levi-' I shook my head 'Don't think about it' I
told myself before standing up and walking into the living room.
 
'8 pm huh...?' I thought looking at the clock and then walked into the
bathroom.
 
'Holy shit!' I jumped back at the sight in the mirror. My hair was a mess. My
eyes red and puffy from crying. My face was as white as chalk even thought I
usually have a very tanned skin.
 
I opened the cupboard over the sink. It still looked the same as one year ago.
 
And there was the thing I guess I had been looking for.

This thing that so many use to help themselves.

It's so small but can be so useful.

And this thing is the blade of the razor from my dad.
 
 
 
 
Now there was a pile of blood on the white floor of the bathroom. I sat down by
the tube, leaning against it.
 
'I wonder what my parents would say to this' I thought looking up at the
ceiling. 'No, more like what Mikasa would say... I guess she would shout at me I
tears and hug me to death' 
 
I chuckled at the thought of my sister. She was always like that. Trying to
protect me even thought there was nothing she had to protect me from.
 
I hugged my knees, the cuts on my wrists painting my jeans red.
 
The apartment was quiet. Nothing could be heard, like nobody was here. Even my
tears were silent.
 
"I'm alone again" I whispered to myself. "I don't want to be alone anymore...
maybe..." looking up I grabbed the blade again. "Maybe I could go to my
parents... Then I wouldn't be alone much longer. Mikasa isn't here anyway"
 
I put the blade to my wrist again, already drawing blood even thought I haven't
moved it yet. "Just one little cut" I whispered "and everything will be
alright"
 
Just as I wanted to move it I heard how the bathroom door flew open. I jumped
and dropped the blade.
 
Slowly I looked up with tears streaming down my face.
 
"You stupid brat" I heard the man growl. "What do you think you're doing, huh?!"
he shouted at me, his grey eyes staring into my turquoise ones.
 
I was shocked.
 
I couldn't believe what I was see right now. I opened my mouth to say something
to him bit I couldn't. I was frozen.
 
'Levi' was the only thing I thought over and over again until I felt a sharp
pain on my left cheek.
 
"Say something idiot!" he shouted at me with anger but also concern I his eyes.
 
Nothing would come out of my mouth but I did something without realizing it. I
flung my arms around his torsos, clinging to him and digging my nails into his
back.
 
And then my voice came out together with more tears "Levi... Levi!... Levi!" I
screamed again and again into his chest.
I cried more and more while I heard him sigh and felt him hugging me gently,
stroking my hair. "It's okay... Calm down" Levi said after a few minutes. He
broke the embrace and looked me in the eyes. He wiped away my tears with another
sigh. "Now do me a favour and sit down on the bathtub so that I can take care of
your arms".
 
I nodded and did what he said. He got the first aid kit that was under the sink.
He cleaned up my wrists and wrapped them in bandages.
 
"So why did you do that?" Levi asked while putting the first aid kit back where
it belonged to.
 
"I... You... Well... Uhmm... "
 
"Forget it" he sighed again and I looked down to my wrists. Levi looked at me
for a while before helping me stand up. "How about you sit down in the living
room while I make us something to eat?"
 
I nodded and walked to the living room sitting down on the couch. "Just wait
here and relax. I'll come and get you when dinner's ready" I nodded again and
watched Levi until he disappeared in the kitchen.

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