Forever Free von abgemeldet ================================================================================ Kapitel 1: ----------- ~Forever Free~ Created by Sakura Author's Note: So, uhm . . . meine 2. J-Rock Fanfiction in Englisch . . . und das ist miserabel . . . ^_^; Ich hab diese geschrieben, um an hide-chan zu erinnern, der vor 4 Jahren, 6 Monaten und einem Tag Selbstmord begangen hat. Hide, wir lieben dich und werden dich nie vergessen! -_-... It's a cold day, so dark and calm, it seems like a gift to my tired soul. This kind of greyness that not even you could dream about. I took the day off; nobody's in the streets, i don't know why . . . Maybe i'm not the only one feeling so sad today, maybe they still remember you too. I hate to be here. I wish everything could be different, like it used to be; You and i watching a movie, doing a picnic, dancing, or anything . . . together. But instead of that i'm here in the cementery . . . alone; Talking mentally to you, as if you could really hear me. I know it's not like that, but . . . i can't help it. Gomen hide-chan, this isn't fair for you, i know i gotta let you go, but has been 4 years and it's still so hard as the first day, hard and painfull. "Dry your tears . . ." How sweet. My tears . . . "Yoshiki-san . . ." I turn around slowly, that voice's so sweet, so caring. I've been walking in dreams hide-chan, blinded for the pain, tears, and this love. Always searching for you, even if i knew it was useless, you left me behind, by myself. "Oh. It's you Shinya-kun." It's raining already . . . I didn't noticed, so cold and blue. "Yoshiki-san, come with me please, you're all wet" He always knows what to say To make me feel better. His gentle touch in my cheek feels so warm and sweet. But, what's he . . .? Oh. My tear, did he just dry my tear?? What's this i'm feeling?? This warm. "With love, remember?? Dry your tears with love." "Shinya . . . Thanks" I can't help it and tears start rolling for my face, his embrace's so warm. Hide, now i know that all this time, everything was cold and empty. Everything seemed nothing. Did i was screaming for help?? All this years . . . Why did you left me. "Yoshiki-san, please, we gotta go now, this place's so cold, it feels so lonely here. It hurts." "Ok...please take me out of here" It's always like this? Life. Every year . . . This day, 24 hours that seems eternal for me. 4 years, maybe next year Hide-chan, i promise, maybe next year we'll be together, i don't want to be alone this day again. With you by my side, this day's gonna be forgotten. It's not going to mean anything to us. "Yoshiki-san . . . Please, stop doing this. It only hurts you most, and so it hurts me, i cannot see you like this, it breaks my heart . . . I know how painfull it is, but please, please let me help you . . . let me be there for you. Maybe if you let me feel your pain i could lower it." Shinya . . . You're helping me. Everyear, you always come here to take me home. To stop my tears and try to lower my pain. So loving. You're the only one that really knows how i feel. And the only reason why i haven't leaved this life yet, no, that's a lie, it's also for me. "Shinya, let's go home, i really could use a big cup of coffe." Shin-chan, can you see this smile?? It's just for you. "You look so gorgeous when you smile Yoshiki-san, it makes my heart melt in happiness." "So where it's gonna be this year, your place or mine??" "You know Yoshiki that this isn't a healthy thing" "It feels good. Maybe next year we could try something different . . ." "Ok, it's a promise then." "Shin-chan, my place would be nice, i have a lot of old magazines i found last week about him, you're gonna love it" "Ok. So i brought Ice cream." "Great, i'm really hungry, but . . . it's so cold don't you think ice cream it's a little bit out of time?? No, don't worry, it's great, the house must be really warm by now." Look hide i'm not the only one that remembers you, every year we bring you back watching your videos, reading your magazines, and listening to your music. And i tell Shin-chan abou you, everything. The way you slept, How you could smile with your eyes sweetly. You're inmortal to us. It really doesn't matter that you're not here. Cause you live in our hearts all the time. And just when i started to feel really sad, and thinking about kill myself Then Shin-chan reminds me how things are. I'm not alone. You neither. One day we're gonna be together again, i'm sure of that. But 'till that day hide-chan, remember always that I love you. "Adieu mon amour." "Baibay hide-sama!" And now, to the warm of my house, next to Shin-chan. He's so gorgeous, don't you think hide-chan?? Maybe Shinya's an angel that heaven sent me so that way i can be happy again. ~hide smile watching the two men go away.~ "I'm starting to like him too, Yo-chan, besides he's taking good care of you, but remember, You're mine, you'll always be." The End. Hosted by Animexx e.V. (http://www.animexx.de)