Sad Destiny   von Naomi
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One day I didn't know why, I felt unhappy about something, or better said, about
someone.
I was on my way home, suddenly I stopped.
My eyes, who couldn't withstand these feelings, began to fill themselves with
tears.
At that time I didn't realized their meaning, at that time I don't want, to
realize them. My heart felt like it was breaking in thousand pieces, and nobody
could handle it. I wanted to shout out loud something, but nothing happened.
What I want to say is still buried in the depth of my heart.
My knees who always upheld me, gave up and I felt down on the road. I was happy
that nobody came by. All that I need was a few minutes to be alone and to wait
since my tears would be exhausted. I didn't realized how long I lied their, but
after a time I stood up and walked away.
I walked and walked, maybe in the wrong direction, I didn't realize it. When I
noticed that I arrived at home, I went into the house and heard my mother asking
me where I have been all the time. I didn't answer the question, I only
said:"Hello Mother...I'm up to my room", I walked upstairs to my room and locked
the door.  I know that I haven't eaten something, but I haven't an appetite at
food.
For a few hours I sat there and watched out of the window. I thought about the
things that had happened...today and the last few months. I knew it, since he
told me the first time about him, he plays doubles with him and they are very
strong together, he often spends time with him and they always walks home
together. But he comes to me to laugh, to speak and to have fun. 
But never thought of me the way I thought at him. Never realized the way I
looked at him, but I don't want him to notice anything... never...
Of course, for a few months I knew that he wants more than friendship from him.
He told me, a week ago, that thing that I noticed months ago. He has feelings
for him, I knew it, but I didn't want to accept it. But when he told me I only
smiled at him and told him, that he should go to and tell him his feelings. 
Today, after training he came to me, and said that he has spoken with him. He
blushed when he told me that since today they were a couple. I smiled and told
him that I would have known it and that I'm happy for him. 
And know it is too late to change something. I'm such an idiot, why the hell I
haven't realized it earlier, this feelings, this sadness and this pain.
Isn't their someone in this world, who could answer my questions, why I had to
live with this feeling inside me, day by day, night by night...always on his
site, he's my best friend, but today I realized that I want more of him than
friendship, but I will never tell him, he will never knew it, until I die...

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