Letters of Apology and Farewell   von Annaleinchen
                       (Shuji/Akira - Nobuta wo Produce)
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                               Kapitel 1: Akira
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Chapter 01: Akira
To say that Kusano Akira was a normal boy would be easy but it would definitely
be a lie because Akira was far from normal. To ordinary standarts at least. He
never gave anything about the opinion of others. He never acted like other kids
of his age regardless what age it was. Whether it was the age of 8 or 14. When
someone looked at him he was always happy, and carefree. A little bit loony,
yes, but it fit him perfectly and nobody knew it elsewise. Well, at least
everyone thought they would knew him but that was just a mask he wanted them to
see.

Because, apart from others believes Akira was a litte genius but still normal
guy with oridnary wishes and his own problems and desires he had to deal with.
Even though everyone thought that the name "Kusano Akira" and words like
"problem", "normal" and even "sad" couldn't be said in one breath. But that was
just because none of them bothered to take a look past the happy surface. Nobody
tried to understand his feelings which were like some kind of tornardo inside of
him, ready to destroy everything that would dare to come near it. Like a wild
beast locked up in a cage, just waiting for the right moment to strike and
destroy it's prey. But Akira wouldn't let those emotions take controll over him.
He restrained himself by throwing all of his existence into his studies. Yes,
studies. Of course anybody believed that it was just his fathers money and not
he himself who brought him his good grades but he knew that good grades weren't
falling from the sky so he made the best out of his time. He studied at night
when there wasn't anybody else around to disturb him. And he never told anybody
from is class  what he got in exams. Not that there was anybody who was
interested in what he was doing anyway.

Akira turned into a very private boy when he started school and that didn't
change when he became older. He never was an active part of his classes. They
all thought he was insane and just not normal so they wouldn't dare to befriend
him. But he was alright with that. He didn't care about their facile views. They
were all shallow and "just look good and be rich and you're my friend"-types of
people. When he hated something more than everything else then it was this kind
of people. Just thinking about looks, money, status. That was all they cared
about. If they had just looked closer they would have noticed that Akira was the
son of one of the riches people in Japan - not that he's give a damn about that.
He always fantasized about how they would kiss his - unexpected - well-formed
butt to get his attention but of course he wouldn't care. He would just laugh in
their faces and walk away. 

He never gave much about friendship ... that was ... until his 2nd year in
highschool where he was put in the same class as Kiritani Shuji. 

Kiritani Shuji was the most popular student of the school. He was good-looking,
had good grades and on top of that he was very popular with girls. Nearly every
girl wanted to go out with him. No offence but ... it was understandable. Akira
himself felt attracted to his classmate. 

Yeah. That was his inner most secret. Not only was Akira "loony", "strange" and
a "loner", he was also gay and had a huge crush on the star student who
definitely wasn't sharing his preferences because it was well know to the entire
school that Mr. I'm - too - sexy - for - walking - around - withoug - a -
firearms certificate - Kiritani Shuji was going out with the most attractive and
desired girl in the entire school, Uehara Mariko. 

Akira knew that there was no chance for him to start a relationship with his
beloved one. So he stayed silent, watching Shuji from the other side of the
classroom where he was seated. He watched silently as Shuji joked around with
his friends, laughed with them, smiled gently when Mariko came during
lunch-break to pick him up and of course while Shuji waved towards his friends,
made his special "Bye Byecycle"-move just before following his girlfriend out of
the classroom. 

Slightly depressed and sad Akira signed to himself while visualising how it
could be when he would be at Mariko's place. He lost himself in his thoughts
whilst walking through the school to get to his favourite place for his lunch:
the rooftop. Once there he straddled one of the chairs, folding his arms ontop
of the backrest, took out the small pack of soymild and slowly began drinking.
During all of that, lost in his thoughts and phantasies about himself hugging
Shuji, whispering gentle declarations of his love into the others ear and
sharing loving kisses. He was so absorbed in this picture his mind had created
notice that small, crystal tears made their way down his slightly flushed
cheeks.

It didn't notice the soft thud of the door and neither did he notice the low
sound of the steps nearing his sitting spot and stopping not far behind him. The
sad boy signed again, placed the soymild-pack on the floor and buried his head
in his entwined arms letting out a small, muffled sobs. The person who was
standing behind him didn't know what to do so they slowly made their way over to
the crying boy and hestistandly placed a smooth, warm hand on top of Akira's
shoulder and asked: "Are you OK?" Shocked upon the sudden and unexpected contact
and the gentle voice he just knew way too well, the surprised youth whirled
around and stared into the concern-filled brown eyes of none other than Kiritani
Shuji with his own wide, teary and slightly red ones.



                               Kapitel 2: Shuji
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Kiritani Shuji was an ordinary boy. Happy, friendly and always helping his
friends when they needed aid. He had a strong will and lots of ideas and visions
for his future. But of course, like every human, he had a weak point, too. His
was the other peoples views. He gave far too much credit to what other people
where thinking of him and was always bending to their will and wishes. He
learned how to put on an obedient mask and attitude at a very early age so that
he wouldn't disappoint his parents and his little baby brother.

But of course he had an opinion of his own, too. He just didn't show it on the
outside. Always swimming with the flow. Deep down he was afraid of losing his
friends should they discover that he wasn't that kind of person they all
believed him to be. He wasn't as self-confident as he made them believe he was.
He always had doubts about what he had to do, what he should say, what was the
right thing to do. But of course...being Kiritani Shuji he never showed any of
these emotions on his face. He was always collected and knew just what to do
should there be problems or misunderstandings. He had another side, too. At home
he was a completely different person. Always laughing, doing funny things,
telling stupid stories and he was even cooking for his family. His father was
working all day long and his mother was overseas doing whatever she was doing at
the moment. He never could tell in which country she was running around.
Therefore he was taking over nearly all the housework like cleaning, cooking,
washing and other things which had to be done. You could say that he had a
second personality but the truth was....he never showed his true self to
someone. Whether his friends nor to his own family. 

Shuji became a popular guy when he started highschool. He couldn't understand
why the girls were all running around him, trying to get his attention. He never
considered himself good-looking or attractive. He thought he was just a bit
above average because he had seen more sexy and hot guys running around on the
streets and everytime when he met another one of those guys he always tried to
think of the various things they had to do for their looks to be like that. And
he never understood why someone would voluntarily waste so much of their
precious time just standing in front of the mirror trying to get their hair into
the perfect position or why they spend so much money for beauty-products like
creams and other cosmetics. And of course he was always stunned at hearing how
often someone could go to the hairdresser to get their hair cut just one
centimeter. He would probably never understand.

He himself never wasted his time and money that way. But he started to look out
for cosmetics when he entered his 2nd year in highschool. He knew why he began
to be choosey but he would never admit it to himself let alone his friends. ....
The reason was a boy in his class. A boy named Kusano Akira.

He immediately noticed the other youth when he first entered his new homeroom.
The boy was sitting on the other side of the room while he was seated next to
the windows. They locked eyes for a spit second but it was enough for him to
burn this picture unerasable into is mind. He doubted that he would be able to
ever forget the positively surprised yet sad and lonely look in the brunettes
eyes. He swore to himself that he would get those attracting and beautiful eyes
to shine in pleasure and pure happiness. Shuji didn't know why he made that
particular vow to himself but he was determined to put everything he had to do
into action to fulfill his oath to himself.

Just a few weeks after the start of the new school year Shuji was surprised by a
certain girl who was telling him that she liked him and would like to go out
with him when he had similar feeling for her like she had for him. This
particular girl was his soon-to-be girlfriend Uehara Mariko. Shuji had listened
to the other guys talking about her. Telling rumors about her beauty and such
but he himself hadn't been interested in talking about that girl. He never gave
much about girls anyway. He thought that he wasn't grown up enough to be ready
to start a relationship with somebody but deep down he just never wanted to
admit the truth to himself. The truth that he already gave his heart away to one
of his classmates. A boy non the less. A boy with light brown hair and sad eyes.


And then there came the day where he finally got to talk to Kusano Akira without
any bystanders listening. It was a normal day. He was just about to eat lunch
together with his girlfriend when he saw his sad class mate slowly walking down
the hall straight towards the stairs which lead to the rooftop where Shuji
himself enjoyed staying when he needed some time to himself to think. He
apologised hastily, saying he had forgotten something and couldn't join Mariko
for lunch and without waiting for an answer rushed away from the room he was
just about to enter and followed Akira to the roof. He waited some minutes in
front of the door before he took a deep breath and went out into the fresh air
just to be surpised with a sight he would have never expected. 

There he sat. Kusano Akira. Alone and staring into space while drinking his
beloved soymilk. Oh yeah. Of course Shuji noticed the other boys liking for this
special drink. But he couldn't concentrate on that thought. Slowly he made his
way over to the other boy just to be frozen to the spot just a few steps away
from him. He noticed the silent tears which were running down the youths cheeks
and Shuji couldn't remember to have ever seen the other boy cry. He didn't know
what to do and therefore he was shocked again to see the other ones head fall on
top of his folded armes where he started to cry and sob. That was the moment
where Shuji decided to approach the other boy because it was obvious that Akira
hadn't noticed that he wasn't alone anymore. 

He closed the last gap between them, placed his hand on one of the trembling
shoulders and whispered the only words that would come to his mind at that
moment. "Are you OK?" Afterwards he could have hit himself for being so dumb and
saying something so foolish like that. It was crystal clear that the other teen
wasn't ok. He wouldn't be crying just for fun, would he? But Shuji's mind
stopped working after this point because the other one whirled around and was
staring at him with eyes wide open and definitely way too shocked to do anything
else than staring into Shuji's eyes.



                       Kapitel 3: Affectionate Gestures
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"Are you OK?" Those words still hung in the air without a respond from the
addressed person. They just stared at each other, not knowing what to say.
"I....uhm....you...." Akira didn't know what he should say to the other teen who
was standing in front of him. He didn't feel quite comfortable with Shuji
staring at him with a searching look in his eyes. Hastily he brought his right
arm to his face to wipe the tears away, embarassed that his classmates had seen
them.

Shuji didn't know what he should do. He stood there...in front of a obviously
confused boy who was crying and now trying to hide his tears even though he knew
that Shuji had already seen them. He couldn't bear to see the other boy's
despair anymore and without a word he let himself fall on his knees and pulled
the other boy into a comforting hug. He buried one hand in the soft hair of
Akira, crawling the sensitive spot on his neck gently while the other was
hugging him tightly onto his own upper body. He burrowed his face in the soft
neck and whispered soothing words into the others ear.

The crying boy was shocked beyond all means. He would have expected everything
to happen besides what was going on right now. He thought Shuji would start
laughing or asking questions without a break and he even thought that the other
boy would simply turn around and walk away, letting him sit there alone. And
now....here he was....being pressed against the other boy, pulled off of the
chair he was sitting on just seconds ago, hearing gentle words from him.
"uh...wha...what are you d-doing?" Akira was really confused but couldn't
restrain himself enough to not enjoy the hug and letting himself relax against
the other teens body. He signed and gave in to the urge of resting his head on
the should of the one in kneeling in front of him.

The kneeling boy couldn't help but feeling relieved when he noticed that the
other youth finally gave up trying to be strong and started leaning against him,
burying his head in the nape of his neck, clinging at his shirt, trying to get
even closer to him. His eyes widened slightly when he felt a wet warmth running
down his neck only to be soaked up to the collar of his shirt. He shifted his
head a little to take a glance at the now so small-looking boy leaning on him
for support. He knew it would be inappropriate to ask what happened to make the
normally self-controlled boy cry so hard and hold fast at someone he had never
talked to. Shuji displaced his position a bit so that he now was sitting on the
floor and Akira ended up straddling him. The brunette lifted his head to gaze up
at the sky, not knowing what to besides stroking Akira's back in small circles.
He could feel how sad the boy was and therefore he couldn't do anything to stop
a small tear from running down his cheek.

They sat there for a few more minutes, waiting for the sobbing boy, who was
still sitting on the lap of the slightly smaller one, to be ready and composed
enough for the talk which was definitely in order. They both knew that this
incident on the school-rooftop was changing their relationship fundamentally.
They both felt that there was a bond forming between them which had never been
built up to another person.

Akira was exhausted. He couldn't remember crying so hard in his entire life. Let
alone in front of someone else. He never even cried in front of his parents so
why would he cry openly in front of a stranger? With one last low sob he sat up,
overlooked the fact that he was still sitting on the lap of Shuji and looked
straight into a pair of sparkling, yet sad eyes. "Gomen ne...I...I d-don't know
why..." Akira stopped midsentence when his classmate gently closed his mouth
with his hand, laying four fingers on his full, pink lips. Shuji was surprised
how soft those lips were but he refused to let his emotions become visible on
his face. Instead he smiled softly and shook his head. "Iie...it's ok. I won't
ask you for the reason. I just want you to know that I'll be there for you
should you need someone to talk to. I know, we don't know each other that good,
but I just want you to know, that I'll be there for you." During his little talk
Shuji moved his hands to Akira's cheeks in order to brush the wet streaks, the
tears left behind, away.

The red eyed boy couldn’t believe what he was hearing. His mind had yet to
register what exactly was going on. He just knew that his secret love held him
in his arms and that was all what mattered to him at the moment. He smiled a
little and gave Shuji a thankful nod. "Thank you. I hope you know what your
words mean to me." Akira leaned forward and wrapped his arms around the
brunettes shoulders. He didn't want to get up and Shuji hadn't made a move to do
so, he even clasped his arms around his upper body and hugged him back, so je
just continued to be seated ontop of him. There was a comforting silence between
them until Akira took a deep breath, worked up his courage, settled back, locked
his eyes with Shuji's and asked: "Ano~ Shuji-kun?...Does this mean...we're
friends now?..." He knew he sounded insecure but at the moment he didn't care.
He didn't want to put up an act in front of Shuji so he let his emotions become
visible in his voice and face. 

Shuji was surprised when Akira leaned over for a hug but he just smiled, even
though the other youth couldn't see it from his position, and put his armes
around the other one, too. Alarmed he looked up when he heard the other one
shakingly taking a deep breath and retreated from the hug. "Ano~
Shuji-kun?...Does this mean...we're friends now?..." Had he heard right? Akira
wanted to be friends with him? Or did he take it the wrong way? 
The corners of his mouth curled up into a bright smile and he gave the other one
a happy nod. "But of course. Don't tell me you thought I would comfort you and
then go back to not talking to you. I wanted to be friends with you since the
beginning of the term but ... somehow ... haven't had enough courage to start a
conversation first. You looked so distant and when I saw that sad look in your
eyes I didn't dare to talk to you. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have run away....I..."
He couldn't finish his sentence because this time it was Akira's turn to silence
him with his index finger. "hmmm....nope. It's ok. I wouldn't have known what to
talk about, anyway. So....let's start from the beginning?" He smirked into
Shuji's face and winked cheekily. He got up, adjusted his clothes and held his
hand out. "Hi. I'm Kusano Akira. Hajimemashite." Totally caught off guard Shuji
remained seated on the floor, looking up at Akira unbelievingly. But he quickly
caught himself again and got up, too. "Hi. I'm Kiritani Shuji. Nice to meet you,
too." He grasped Akira's outstretched hand and shook it enthusiastically.



                           Kapitel 4: Getting Close
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Chapter 04 : Getting Close
The Sun was going down, making the ocean look like it would consist out of
millions of diamonds. The view was beautiful and it always made Akira think back
to his 2nd year in high school back in Tokyo. It was not that long ago. Just 2
years but in these 2 years a lot had happened. He thought back to this fateful
day when he was crying on the roof of his school during lunch break. Crying his
heart out because of his one-sided love. His love towards his now best friend.
Yeah, a lot had happened. 

After that day a deep friendship had been build between them. At first they
didn't want others to know about them - god, that sounded like a forbidden love
affair - but then they meet Nobuko. The silent, shy girl made them realize that
it wasn't good to act like you were somebody else in front of others.  It just
lead to big problems. Problems and distrust. Like Shuji had to experience when
their other classmates found out that he broke up with his girlfriend. Akira
couldn't understand why he did it because Shuji never mentioned the reason why
he took that step. But deep inside Akira was happy that he did what he did
because now he didn't have to worry about some girl clinging at his best friend
and still secret love. The brunette smiles slightly at this thought. He knew it
was not nice to think that way but he couldn't bring himself to stop doing it.
Of course he had to admit that he was a bit jealous but at the same time he knew
that he had no reason to be so. He was with his belove d Shuji and even when the
other girls in class tried to get his attention or kept asking him out he
flatout refused, always saying that there was already a special person his heart
belonged to and Akira was literaly dying to find out who this special person
was. But again regardless of how often he asked Shuji the other boy stayed
silent and kept his seemingly most hidden secret. 

The young teen signed and let himself fall back into the soft sand he was
sitting on. The sun had already gone down and the first stars started to appear
on the dark blue sky. He crossed his arms behind his head and looked up to the
letting his thoughts wander back to the day where Nobuta told him to follow
Shuji. Akira didn't know that the girl had found out about his feelings long ago
and already knew to whom they were directed to. But she kept silent until that
fateful day where Shuji told his class that he had to move to Hokkaido because
of his dad. Everyone could see how hard it was for Shuji to tell them and not
just turn around and run out of the classroom. He held is back so tightly that
his knuckles could clearly been seen. Akira hated his classmates for being so
ignorant towards Shujis situations and his feelings. He always tried hard not to
disappoint their imaginations even though he knew that it was wrong. But at the
end they all could see what they did to the poor boy and said goodbye to him
when he was already on his way to his new home. And exactly that was the moment
where Nobuta told him to follow his own heart. To follow his first friend and
love and stay with him. It was just natural that Akira was deeply shocked that
she knew about his most hidden secret but at the same time he was  relived that
there at least was somebody he could talk to and who wouldn't judge him. And of
course Akira being himself he followed Shuji and went the entire way to
Hokkaido, transferred into his school and even managed it to arrive a day before
him to give the other boy the biggest surprise in his life. 

The laying boy chuckled as he remembered the expression on Shujis face when he
noticed Akira standing in the back of the classroom, leaning against the window
frame, giving him his infamous "kon"-gesture while smiling softly. His eyes
started to sparkle at the thought of them fooling around at the beach he was
currently laying on, laughing and even jumping into the water fully clothed. At
that moment he knew that he had done the right thing and the next day he send
Nobuko a message thanking her over and over again for making him follow Shuji. 

He stopped his thoughts when he heard the approaching steps in the sand behind
him. "Oi, what are you doing? You'll catch a cold when you stay there for too
long and you don't want that, don't you? I mean....Vacation just started and it
would be a shame if you had to stay in bed for the entire 14 days.", Shuji spoke
softly while letting himself fall next to the boy who was now watching him
closely. Akira went back to watching the stars. After a few moments he answered:
"Of course I don't want to get sick but I just somehow forgot that I was only
wearing a t-shirt and it's just a beautiful night. Don't you think so, too? I
mean, look at the stars. They are shining so brightly tonight. I just couldn't
leave. They somehow made me think about what happened 2 years ago. It made me
realise something." Surprised Shuji turned his head towards his best friend.
"What? And what did you realise?" This truely caught his interrest. It wasn't an
everyday event that Akira, the normally hyper, everytime-happy and always
smiling boy had such deep thoughts that he forgot that he still was only clad in
a t-shirt. The brunette chuckled lightly and said in a low voice: "I realised
that....I did the right thing when I followed my heart and went here to be with
you......Shuji-kun." Akira turned his head so that he was now looking directly
into Shujis eyes which were slightly widened. "Uhm....huh?...."m the confusion
clearly showed on Shuji's face, "Wha...What do you mean? You're
saying....strange stuff Akira-kun. Did the "romantic" mood get you?" It was more
than clear that Shuji was embarrassed and didn't know what to say but he tried
to cover it up with a joke....and of course...it didn't work. 

Akira just smiled at the other boys attempt to hide the his blushing cheeks with
turning his gaze towards ne now black ocean. He sat up and crossed his legs,
never letting his eyes lose contact with the other one's face. 'I have to tell
him now. If not now then never. We've been far too close for him to just throw
away our friendship. Not that he would ever do that. I just know it.
Besides....hope isn't lost, yet. Maybe....', Akira thought. Collecting every bit
of his courage he lifted his right hand and gently placed it on the heated cheek
of the other boy. The contact of the slightly cold hand made Shuji jump a little
but he refused to look at Akira. Instead he fixed his gaze on the water.
"...Shuji-kun?....Would you look at me?....", Akira tried not to be so obviously
nervous but it could be heard in his voice that he just wanted to get up and run
away...far away. There was a thick silence between the two 2nd year college
students until Akira tried again. "...Shuji....please....", he pleaded. The
begging sound of the brunettes voice finally showed it's effect and Shuji slowly
turned around to face Akira. At first he was hesitant but then he looked
directly into the deep eyes of the one in front of him. "Akira....I....don't
know wha-", Shuji was cut of when Akira started to shake his head. "Shhh Shuji.
Let me tell you this now or I won't be able to do so in my entire life. Please.
Just listen to what I have to say and when I'm finished you can tell me what you
think, ok?", said Akira. Shuji started to get more confused at this. Akira
sounded deadly serious. It must be something really important that he wanted him
to know. He understood how much it meant to Akira therefore he stayed silent and
just nodded his head approvingly, showing the other boy that he wouldn't say
anything till he was finished. Smiling at the respond of Shuji, Akira closed his
eyes for a second and took a deep breath before he started to talk.

"Well, Shuji, you know that I've never been one to show my emotions freely in
front of others. I'm sure that you still remember the day we started to be
friends. The day I sat on the roof of the school, crying my eyes out. God, I was
deeply shocked that I wasn't alone there at that day, but I'm happy that it
happened, because...otherwise I don't think we would have become friends....",
he paused and Shuji smiled a bit and gave a short nod for Akira to continue,
"....you know....I wanted to be friends with you long before we ended up in the
same class...a happy coincidence may I say...but I never dared to talk to you. I
always was a "lonely wolf" and the other kids never talked to me unless they had
to, ok, it was quite fine with me because I never wanted to talk to people like
them but then....I met you. I saw you a few times in 1st year of high school but
you were always talking to your friends and I haven't had enough courage to walk
up to you and talk to you. You can't imagine how happy I was when we ended up in
the same class.... ." At this Akira let his gaze wander off to the horizon. He
sighed dropped his right hand into the sand and softly continued his little
speech. "I was stunned when our look met. I felt like I was drowning in you
eyes. I can't remember to have ever seen such deep and emotion filled eyes
before. And somehow ... I knew that there was something deep inside of me that I
had missed for my whole life....Something I always wanted but never was able to
get. Do you know what I mean?", Akira turned around to look at Shuji but Shuji
could only shake his head slightly so the brunette continued softly, "....love.
I never experienced something like love in my entire life. Regardless if it was
of the amicable way or the romantic one. Even my parents never showed me that
they loved me. I was already as far as to thing that I would never be able to
love or be loved...that was...until that day. I felt something stirring inside
of me. A comforting and warm feeling." Again Akira turned around to look at the
water with a smile. "At first I didn't know what that feeling was but after some
time I realised that I had developed feelings for you. Deep feelings. I
forcefully had to realise that I had started to love you....", he told Shuji. He
didn't see the widening of Shujis eyes when he realised what Akira was trying to
tell him. And of course Akira didn't notice how the brown eyes of Shuji started
to sparkle and how a bright smile was forming on his lips. "... And then the day
you had your lunch with Mariko....I couldn't take it anymore...I went to the
roof and just started to cry. I couldn't hold the tears inside of me
anymore....I never cryed in front of other persons. I never cried in front of my
parents. So I chose to cry alone on the rooftop of the school. And then ... you
appeared behind me...out of thin air....I was so shocked. I didn't know what to
do. But your words comforted me and the gentle look in your eyes....it was the
final straw...i couldn't take it anymore....well...you know what happened next.
I was so happy to be your friend. I was so happy to be finally able to be with
you. I really hope you can understand my feelings, Shuji. I don't expect you to
return them but....I would be glad when I wouldn't push me away just because
I.....I.....", at this point he broke up and stayed silent, not able to form the
words that were playing in his head over and over. 'I really hope he won't hate
me for what I said.'

Shuji continued look at Akira. He looked so small now that he had tucked up his
legs to his chest and wrapped his arms around his knees. It was a strange
picture. He never imagined the strong Boy like that. Of course he knew that
nobody could be strong all the time like it had happened 2 years ago. But ...
Shuji was overjoyed to hear those words from the other teen. He would have never
managed to gather enough courage to tell his special someone his feelings. This
special person he always mentioned when some girl asked him out or told him her
feelings. This special person he couldn't get out of his mind since they first
met. This special person....who was now sitting right in front of him, fearing
his anger or some other negative reaction. He closed his eyes, shook his head
and took a deep breath. He fixed his eyes on the slightly trembling form of his
best friend grinned. Shuji couldn't hold himself back any longer therefore he
wrapped his arms around Akiras shoulders and hugged him tightly. "Thank you,
Akira. Thank you so much. I would have never been able to tell you what I'm
going to tell you know if it weren't for your words. Akira....I....", he
stopped, looked deeply into the shocked eyes of the other boy, "I....I love you.
Akira suki dayo.", as Shuji said that he blushed intensely. 

If it would be possible Akira's eyes would have widened even more. The brunette
couldn't believe what he had heard. Shuji, his Shuji had said that he loved
him...His mind refused to work...it just repeated Shujis last sentence over and
over again. After some minutes of silence Akira dared to move again....he
blinked hastily and opened his mouth to say something but is voice flat out
refused to make a sound. He tried again and this time he was only able to let
out a happy shout. He started to laugh uncontrollable and threw himself against
Shuji causing him to fall over, landing on his back with Akira on top of him.
Akira laughed and hugged the other boy while he started to roll around with him
in the sand. "Ha ha ha ha ha ha .... I can't believe it. Gods....Ha ha ha ha
ha....Do you know how happy you made me? Do you know? Do you? Akira HAPPY~" At
this Shuji started to laugh to and happily joined Akira in his childish
behaviour.

They continued to roll around in the sand until they ended up being washed over
of a big wave. They stopped their movements and remained frozen in spot because
just now they realized their positions.

Again Shuji layed on the sand with Akira all over him. Their clothes were wet
from the water which continued to wash over their legs up to their hips. Their
hair was limply haning off the heads. Akira supported his body weight with his
forarms and their faces were just centimetres away of each other. Each of them
was breathing heavily. Shuji still had his hands rested on the other boys hips,
starring up into Akira's deep eyes, noticed the brunettes chest move rapidly
against his own, feeling the hot breath against his own lips. 

Akira didn't dare to move. He layed on top of Shuji, on the beach, wet from the
oceanwater and breathing heavily from the messing around. He based himself on
his forearms which were placed directly next to Shuji's head. He noticed the
little drops falling from his hair on his best friends cheeks but he was caught
in the moment and the loving look in Shuji's eyes. He could feel the atmosphere
heaten. Slowly he lowered his head, not losing the connection of their eyes.
Right before he reached the lips of Shuji he stopped, seeing the other one
closing his eyes slowly and welcoming the next move he also closed his eyes and
closed the remaining space between them, putting his lips gently on top of the
other boy's. 

A wave of emotions was rushing over them. They felt the feelings of the other
one while they continued to gently move their lips against the other pair. The
kiss was soft and and pure, filled with every emotion they had vor each other.
Shuji moved his hands from Akira's hips over his back just to let them rest on
his shoulderblades, pressing him closer to himself. He could feel Akira letting
his tongue move over his bottom lip, gently asking for entrance. He signed
contently and slowly opened his lips to let the other boy's tongue move into his
mouth, moaning slightly at the touch of his own and Akira's. He moved his head
to give the boy on top a better entrance. The brunette slowly let his tongue
move against Shuji's. Stroking it, messaging it and alluring it along with his
own into his own mouth. 

They continued to kiss gently for a while until they both had to stop because of
the lack of air. Keeping their eyes closed they panted a few times before they
looked at each other again. Both of them had a deep blush on their cheeks and a
slightly clouded look in their eyes. "...wow...", was all Shuji could say. Akira
could only nod and say, "Yeah...wow...I never thought...it would feel so good."
The brunette smiled and nudged Shujis nose with his own. "...But....does that
mean, we're ..t-together now...?", Shuji asked shyly. Surprised Akira's eyebrow
rose a bit. Reassuringly he stroked Shujis hair and answered simply: "But of
course ... or do you think I would kiss just for fun? ... Well, of course I'll
start doing that now...", he winked playfully at Shuji, "...but only with you."
Akira leaned down and placed a short kiss on Shuji's lips. The other boy blushed
deeper and nodded smiling. "Hm....I think we should go home now. I mean...I
don't want you to catch a cold now, ne?", said Akira and stood up just to reach
out to help Shuji getting up. "No, you won't.", giggled Shuji and let himself
being pulled to his feet. Akira started to walk of after he grabbed Shujis hand.


They walked to the street until they reached the frontdoor of Shuji's house.
"Well....see ya tomorrow?", asked Shuji. "But of course, honey, kon", Akira said
in his childish manner with his little hand-fox. "Uhm....do you wanna come over
tomorrow? I could cook us lunch.", offered the slightly smaller boy. "Hontou?
You would cook something for me?", exclaimed Akira overjoyed and flung his arms
around Shujis shoulders. Giggling Shuji stroked over Akiras head when the other
boy buried his face in his neck and started nibbling and softly sucking on the
soft skin. "Sure. Everything for you, you know?" They stayed like that for a few
more moments until Akira was satisfied with his work, licked over the abused
spot and leaned back. "Well then, see ya tomorrow. I'll be there at...something
around....8.", and with that he turned around and started running towards his
home. Shuji stood there for a few seconds, but then he finally realised what
time the other one had said and whirled around, "WHAT? Oi, Akira~...", he tried
to stop the other boy but he already was too far away. He signed defeated,
"Hn....That's so typical for him...." Shaking his head he turned around to open
the door to get some sleep before his hyper now-boyfriend would come over.




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